Dealing With The Realities of "Reality Porn"
There is always going to be a high turn-over rate when it comes to the people performing in porn. I've lost count of how many times I've become infatuated with a beautiful new model on some website or DVD, only to see him disappear after one or two scenes, never to be seen or heard from again.
Now that I'm a producer myself, I'm learning the hard way why that is the case.
Sometimes it's simply due to some change in a model's circumstances or interests. For example, models might move to another city, go off to college, or get involved in monogamous romantic relationships with partners who don't like the idea of their boyfriends sleeping with other men for a living.
For some guys, doing porn is just a spontaneous, short-term thrill like bungee-jumping or sky-diving, something they do once just to say they've done it, but will most likely never do again. For others, it's an impulsive decision, a quick way to pay off a debt or escape a difficult financial situation - a desperate and temporary last resort.
But I suspect that most of the guys who disappear from the porn scene after only one or two scenes do so because of the exposure, harassment, and discrimination that frequently faces those working in the adult entertainment industry. The fact of the matter is that while porn is much more accessible and mainstream than it was just ten or twenty years ago, we still live in a religious, sexually repressive country where there's still a social stigma surrounding porn and the people who make it. The really fucked-up part is that those who make pornography a multi-billion dollar industry by joining its websites and buying its DVD's are the very same people judging, exposing, and shaming their friends and relatives who actually make such adult entertainment possible!
Add to that the fact that there's still such widespread ignorance, disapproval, and even hostility toward men who have sex with men, prejudice that runs especially rampant within the black community - and it's not hard to imagine the kind of treatment that many black males performing in gay porn are subjected to by their families and friends, or understand why that might be too much for some guys to bear. Especially since many of the guys I work with are either straight or bisexual and "on the DL" - guys whose sexual identities are already so confused and conflicted and contradictory to begin with, which of course only increases the risk of them experiencing regrets or complications in their personal lives as a consequence of doing gay porn.
Now I could do what a lot of gay producers do and work exclusively with out-and-proud gay males. I'm guessing that's why there are so many laughably fake scenes on the so-called "straight bait" sites starring girly gay boys trying to pass themselves off as straight virgin frat-boys or jocks and other nonsense like that. Those producers profit from the fantasy of seducing a straight guy while sparing themselves the stress and drama that come with pursuing actual real-life straight boys.
But I choose to work with straight, bi-curious, and bisexual guys "on the DL" because in my opinion they are the most intriguing and exciting to watch and film (although I do work from time to time with some very cute gay boys as well). I assume that if you're a fan of my movies, you probably feel the same way.
But by seeking out this unique brand of "reality porn" (me making it and you watching it), we also have to accept that reality oftentimes fails to conform to our fantasies. Most of these guys will never become popular gay "porn stars" starring in dozens or even hundreds of scenes. Most of them will never go "all the way" (i.e., anal penetration) - at least not for the money I'm able to offer them. And sadly, a lot of them will only appear in one or two scenes before changing their minds or getting scared away from gay porn for good.
With this introduction in mind, here's some sad news about three popular BBA models that we will most likely not be seeing again:
Lil Steve
A couple weeks after Lil Steve filmed the scene in which he tried sucking dick for the very first time, I received an email from him begging me not to release it. Although he didn't go into much detail, I got the distinct sense that friends and/or family members had already found out about his scene with Dragon. Suddenly his curiosity and openness to try new things was now replaced with fear, embarrassment, and regret. I explained that while I understood and sympathized with his concerns, I couldn't take down scenes every time a model changed his mind or experienced regret (a lesson I learned following the Lil Luda fiasco).
That was the last I heard from Lil Steve until a few weeks later when I decided to see if things had maybe calmed down for him enough that he'd consider coming back for another scene. Sadly, he refused to do any more scenes - "no matter the price." And I haven't heard from Lil Steve since.
Lil Steve's decision not to come back for more scenes is disappointing but not surprising. He actually went a lot farther than I ever thought he'd go - I don't think a lot of you appreciate what a huge step it was for him to suck another guy's dick! I just have to be grateful that he gave us as many scenes as he did.
D-Rel
For the past several months, I've tried just about everything to persuade D-Rel to come back for another scene. I've propositioned him with *twice* what he earned for his encounter with me, which was a ridiculously large sum of money to begin with. I even offered to film him in a scene with a female, hoping the promise of pussy might at least lure him back. But every time he has turned me down without any hesitation whatsoever. The last email I received from him read, "Nice try. Have a nice life, bruh!" And he's ignored all of my emails since then.
For several weeks after D-Rel's scene with Suspense, he ignored Suspense's phone-calls and emails as well. I'm not sure if it was because he was embarrassed about everything they'd done together in that scene, afraid that Suspense had learned about him going "gay for pay" with me, or both. Whatever D-Rel's reasons were for avoiding his friend, Suspense honestly thought for awhile that their friendship was over. When school started back up, they began hanging out again, although Suspense told me that D-Rel made it clear he didn't want to hear or discuss anything related to me or BBA.
I still don't know if any of D-Rel's friends or family members have found out about his scenes, or the role (if any) that's played in his refusal to come back for more.
My theory is that D-Rel's scenes scared the hell out of him!!!
More accurately, his *reactions* to those scenes scared the hell out of him. They tapped into and exposed his curiosity if not blatant desire for sex with other guys, both to himself as well as anyone watching. After watching and re-watching D-Rel's scenes several times, I am now convinced of what many of you tried telling me from the very beginning - that D-Rel is bisexual or at the very least bi-curious.
The problem is that I don't think D-Rel's anywhere close to being ready to admit that or embrace it just yet....not even to himself, let alone his family and friends. I honestly don't think he's faking his discomfort or disgust in those scenes. I think his reactions are exaggerated but nevertheless sincere.
And I can't say I blame him. Even though D-Rel has that innocent, wholesome, even goofy quality about him, he's grown up in one of the most impoverished, dangerous, crime-ridden cities in the Midwest, and he's obviously internalized much of the homophobia and repressive definitions of "manhood" that surround him on a daily basis.
Like many of you, I suspect D-Rel might be more experienced with gay sex than he's letting on. I honestly don't know, and I'll probably never know. However, having seen that beautiful asshole up-close, I'm 99.9999% certain the boy's never been fucked!
Still, it doesn't take a rocket scientist to watch D-Rel's scenes and see that trapped beneath that cocky, homophobic straight-boy facade, there's a horny, submissive "bottom" just dying to get out
! (Okay, I admit I didn't see it at first, but with your help it eventually became obvious). Trust me when I say that nobody wanted to see a dick split open that beautiful butt more than me!
I'm sure it's only a matter of time before somebody out there unleashes D-Rel's inner freak. And damn do I envy the man lucky enough to pluck that sweet little cherry!!!
I have a feeling that D-Rel's journey of sexual self-discovery has only just barely begun. Sadly, the next chapters in that saga will more than likely be taking place off-camera. I guess we'll just have to imagine what happens next
....
As most of you know, I had it *bad* for this beautiful boy, and it's been extremely hard to accept the fact that I will most likely never see or touch or film him ever again. Who knows how long I'll be doing this, but I have a feeling that even if it's with hundreds of models for decades to come, I will always remember D-Rel as one of my all-time favorites.
Suspense
By far the saddest news I have to share is that Suspense has decided to quit.
Shortly after arriving back in town after the holidays, I received an email from Suspense saying that he no longer wants to do porn, and that he regrets ever meeting and working for me.
It's impossible to put into words just how shocked and hurt I felt while reading his email. I had grown closer to Suspense than just about any other model I've worked with. I truly considered him a friend as well as a model. He too had referred to me as a friend on numerous occasions, and I have dozens of emails from him over the past year in which he's had nothing but positive things to say about his experiences with BBA.
What made Suspense's announcement all the more shocking and bizarre is that *less than a month ago* he was telling me about a friend of his he was trying to recruit for me ("Don't worry, I'll have him at your doorstep naked in no time," he promised in a recent email). He'd also agreed to do a scene similar to Dragon's Schoolboy Confessions in which he'd answer questions from his fans. The scene with Tori was filmed less than three weeks before this email. He had even applied to work for Flavaworks (totally on his own), and was planning to do several video-shoots for them over the holidays!
Now Suspense has had his mood swings in the past, but nothing even remotely close to this!
Reading between the lines, I'm guessing that Suspense experienced some kind of religious "conversion" over the holidays, and that this dramatic change of heart is as much about his guilt and confusion over his sexuality as it is about doing porn. (Keep in mind he attends a very conservative, Christian college). He claimed that money was his only motivation for doing porn, totally forgetting (or deliberately ignoring) the significant role his own bi-curiosity played in all of it. It sounds to me like he's trying to distance himself from anything "gay" as much as possible. In fact, his whole attitude and tone is so drastically different from the last time I saw him that it wouldn't surprise me one bit to learn that he's involved in some kind of deprogramming/ex-gay program.
To give you a sense of just how warped his thinking is right now, he claimed in his email that doing porn "cost him his best friend." This so-called "best friend" is the same "Christian" who Suspense had been planning to live with last summer, who kicked Suspense out when he found out he was doing gay porn. But instead of blaming his self-righteous, hypocritical asshole of a so-called "friend," Suspense blames himself and the porn!
I tried being supportive and letting Suspense know that I'm still here for him if he ever needs anything....money, a place to stay, a sympathetic listener, whatever....no strings attached. And to keep him from totally revising history, I reminded him that he's enjoyed many if not most of his scenes, especially the ones in which he's the top. (I think the videos speak for themselves).
He replied with a snide little email, basically saying I didn't know anything about him and that I need to stop acting like a psychologist who knows what he's thinking and feeling. He also said he never wanted to hear from me again. I'd never seen that cold and sarcastic side of Suspense before.
I've already decided that even in the unlikely case that Suspense would swallow his pride and beg me to do more scenes at some point in the future, I still wouldn't hire him again - he's just too confused and emotionally unstable right now. However, I wouldn't be surprised one bit if at some point even in the near future he changes his mind again and shows up in scenes for Flavaworks or other gay companies. So I guess there's still a little bit of hope for all the Suspense fans out there.
And even if he never performs in gay porn again, I'd bet my life on the fact that he *will* be chasing after guy-on-guy sex again....if he hasn't already, LOL!
This situation with Suspense has definitely hit me the hardest. I'm dealing with it much better now, but for the first couple weeks I was truly depressed. I've been putting off breaking the bad news on the blog, but I knew this was an entry I'd have to write sooner or later. Due to the intimate, reality-porn approach of my movies, I think many of you end up feeling almost as close to the models as I do, and it just wouldn't be fair not to write this "epilogue" to their BBA stories.
The new year's obviously gotten off to a pretty rough start, but I'm trying to focus on the positive and move on.
I honestly believe that all of my models are unique and irreplaceable to a certain degree. But I also agree with a porn producer friend of mine who likes to remind me that Mother Nature has provided us with a limitless supply of beautiful boys. For every hot model we lose today, there are dozens of others still waiting to be discovered, just as hot if not hotter than the one that got away.
Without a doubt, Lil Steve, D-Rel, and Suspense were major BBA players in 2009, and they will definitely be missed!
But it's a NEW YEAR and I'm very proud of BBA's newest models such as Beno, Tori, and Kenny, all of whom are developing loyal fan followings of their own and have already done some exciting work for me so far.
Instead of dwelling too much on the past, I'm trying to focus on the sexy boys still working for me as well as the new boys I've yet to discover, wondering who the Lil Steve's and D-Rel's and Suspense's of 2010 will be!
Now that I'm a producer myself, I'm learning the hard way why that is the case.
Sometimes it's simply due to some change in a model's circumstances or interests. For example, models might move to another city, go off to college, or get involved in monogamous romantic relationships with partners who don't like the idea of their boyfriends sleeping with other men for a living.
For some guys, doing porn is just a spontaneous, short-term thrill like bungee-jumping or sky-diving, something they do once just to say they've done it, but will most likely never do again. For others, it's an impulsive decision, a quick way to pay off a debt or escape a difficult financial situation - a desperate and temporary last resort.
But I suspect that most of the guys who disappear from the porn scene after only one or two scenes do so because of the exposure, harassment, and discrimination that frequently faces those working in the adult entertainment industry. The fact of the matter is that while porn is much more accessible and mainstream than it was just ten or twenty years ago, we still live in a religious, sexually repressive country where there's still a social stigma surrounding porn and the people who make it. The really fucked-up part is that those who make pornography a multi-billion dollar industry by joining its websites and buying its DVD's are the very same people judging, exposing, and shaming their friends and relatives who actually make such adult entertainment possible!
Add to that the fact that there's still such widespread ignorance, disapproval, and even hostility toward men who have sex with men, prejudice that runs especially rampant within the black community - and it's not hard to imagine the kind of treatment that many black males performing in gay porn are subjected to by their families and friends, or understand why that might be too much for some guys to bear. Especially since many of the guys I work with are either straight or bisexual and "on the DL" - guys whose sexual identities are already so confused and conflicted and contradictory to begin with, which of course only increases the risk of them experiencing regrets or complications in their personal lives as a consequence of doing gay porn.
Now I could do what a lot of gay producers do and work exclusively with out-and-proud gay males. I'm guessing that's why there are so many laughably fake scenes on the so-called "straight bait" sites starring girly gay boys trying to pass themselves off as straight virgin frat-boys or jocks and other nonsense like that. Those producers profit from the fantasy of seducing a straight guy while sparing themselves the stress and drama that come with pursuing actual real-life straight boys.
But I choose to work with straight, bi-curious, and bisexual guys "on the DL" because in my opinion they are the most intriguing and exciting to watch and film (although I do work from time to time with some very cute gay boys as well). I assume that if you're a fan of my movies, you probably feel the same way.
But by seeking out this unique brand of "reality porn" (me making it and you watching it), we also have to accept that reality oftentimes fails to conform to our fantasies. Most of these guys will never become popular gay "porn stars" starring in dozens or even hundreds of scenes. Most of them will never go "all the way" (i.e., anal penetration) - at least not for the money I'm able to offer them. And sadly, a lot of them will only appear in one or two scenes before changing their minds or getting scared away from gay porn for good.
With this introduction in mind, here's some sad news about three popular BBA models that we will most likely not be seeing again:
Lil Steve
A couple weeks after Lil Steve filmed the scene in which he tried sucking dick for the very first time, I received an email from him begging me not to release it. Although he didn't go into much detail, I got the distinct sense that friends and/or family members had already found out about his scene with Dragon. Suddenly his curiosity and openness to try new things was now replaced with fear, embarrassment, and regret. I explained that while I understood and sympathized with his concerns, I couldn't take down scenes every time a model changed his mind or experienced regret (a lesson I learned following the Lil Luda fiasco).
That was the last I heard from Lil Steve until a few weeks later when I decided to see if things had maybe calmed down for him enough that he'd consider coming back for another scene. Sadly, he refused to do any more scenes - "no matter the price." And I haven't heard from Lil Steve since.
Lil Steve's decision not to come back for more scenes is disappointing but not surprising. He actually went a lot farther than I ever thought he'd go - I don't think a lot of you appreciate what a huge step it was for him to suck another guy's dick! I just have to be grateful that he gave us as many scenes as he did.
D-Rel
For the past several months, I've tried just about everything to persuade D-Rel to come back for another scene. I've propositioned him with *twice* what he earned for his encounter with me, which was a ridiculously large sum of money to begin with. I even offered to film him in a scene with a female, hoping the promise of pussy might at least lure him back. But every time he has turned me down without any hesitation whatsoever. The last email I received from him read, "Nice try. Have a nice life, bruh!" And he's ignored all of my emails since then.
For several weeks after D-Rel's scene with Suspense, he ignored Suspense's phone-calls and emails as well. I'm not sure if it was because he was embarrassed about everything they'd done together in that scene, afraid that Suspense had learned about him going "gay for pay" with me, or both. Whatever D-Rel's reasons were for avoiding his friend, Suspense honestly thought for awhile that their friendship was over. When school started back up, they began hanging out again, although Suspense told me that D-Rel made it clear he didn't want to hear or discuss anything related to me or BBA.
I still don't know if any of D-Rel's friends or family members have found out about his scenes, or the role (if any) that's played in his refusal to come back for more.
My theory is that D-Rel's scenes scared the hell out of him!!!
More accurately, his *reactions* to those scenes scared the hell out of him. They tapped into and exposed his curiosity if not blatant desire for sex with other guys, both to himself as well as anyone watching. After watching and re-watching D-Rel's scenes several times, I am now convinced of what many of you tried telling me from the very beginning - that D-Rel is bisexual or at the very least bi-curious.
The problem is that I don't think D-Rel's anywhere close to being ready to admit that or embrace it just yet....not even to himself, let alone his family and friends. I honestly don't think he's faking his discomfort or disgust in those scenes. I think his reactions are exaggerated but nevertheless sincere.
And I can't say I blame him. Even though D-Rel has that innocent, wholesome, even goofy quality about him, he's grown up in one of the most impoverished, dangerous, crime-ridden cities in the Midwest, and he's obviously internalized much of the homophobia and repressive definitions of "manhood" that surround him on a daily basis.
Like many of you, I suspect D-Rel might be more experienced with gay sex than he's letting on. I honestly don't know, and I'll probably never know. However, having seen that beautiful asshole up-close, I'm 99.9999% certain the boy's never been fucked!
Still, it doesn't take a rocket scientist to watch D-Rel's scenes and see that trapped beneath that cocky, homophobic straight-boy facade, there's a horny, submissive "bottom" just dying to get out
! (Okay, I admit I didn't see it at first, but with your help it eventually became obvious). Trust me when I say that nobody wanted to see a dick split open that beautiful butt more than me! I'm sure it's only a matter of time before somebody out there unleashes D-Rel's inner freak. And damn do I envy the man lucky enough to pluck that sweet little cherry!!!
I have a feeling that D-Rel's journey of sexual self-discovery has only just barely begun. Sadly, the next chapters in that saga will more than likely be taking place off-camera. I guess we'll just have to imagine what happens next
....As most of you know, I had it *bad* for this beautiful boy, and it's been extremely hard to accept the fact that I will most likely never see or touch or film him ever again. Who knows how long I'll be doing this, but I have a feeling that even if it's with hundreds of models for decades to come, I will always remember D-Rel as one of my all-time favorites.
Suspense
By far the saddest news I have to share is that Suspense has decided to quit.
Shortly after arriving back in town after the holidays, I received an email from Suspense saying that he no longer wants to do porn, and that he regrets ever meeting and working for me.
It's impossible to put into words just how shocked and hurt I felt while reading his email. I had grown closer to Suspense than just about any other model I've worked with. I truly considered him a friend as well as a model. He too had referred to me as a friend on numerous occasions, and I have dozens of emails from him over the past year in which he's had nothing but positive things to say about his experiences with BBA.
What made Suspense's announcement all the more shocking and bizarre is that *less than a month ago* he was telling me about a friend of his he was trying to recruit for me ("Don't worry, I'll have him at your doorstep naked in no time," he promised in a recent email). He'd also agreed to do a scene similar to Dragon's Schoolboy Confessions in which he'd answer questions from his fans. The scene with Tori was filmed less than three weeks before this email. He had even applied to work for Flavaworks (totally on his own), and was planning to do several video-shoots for them over the holidays!
Now Suspense has had his mood swings in the past, but nothing even remotely close to this!
Reading between the lines, I'm guessing that Suspense experienced some kind of religious "conversion" over the holidays, and that this dramatic change of heart is as much about his guilt and confusion over his sexuality as it is about doing porn. (Keep in mind he attends a very conservative, Christian college). He claimed that money was his only motivation for doing porn, totally forgetting (or deliberately ignoring) the significant role his own bi-curiosity played in all of it. It sounds to me like he's trying to distance himself from anything "gay" as much as possible. In fact, his whole attitude and tone is so drastically different from the last time I saw him that it wouldn't surprise me one bit to learn that he's involved in some kind of deprogramming/ex-gay program.
To give you a sense of just how warped his thinking is right now, he claimed in his email that doing porn "cost him his best friend." This so-called "best friend" is the same "Christian" who Suspense had been planning to live with last summer, who kicked Suspense out when he found out he was doing gay porn. But instead of blaming his self-righteous, hypocritical asshole of a so-called "friend," Suspense blames himself and the porn!
I tried being supportive and letting Suspense know that I'm still here for him if he ever needs anything....money, a place to stay, a sympathetic listener, whatever....no strings attached. And to keep him from totally revising history, I reminded him that he's enjoyed many if not most of his scenes, especially the ones in which he's the top. (I think the videos speak for themselves).
He replied with a snide little email, basically saying I didn't know anything about him and that I need to stop acting like a psychologist who knows what he's thinking and feeling. He also said he never wanted to hear from me again. I'd never seen that cold and sarcastic side of Suspense before.
I've already decided that even in the unlikely case that Suspense would swallow his pride and beg me to do more scenes at some point in the future, I still wouldn't hire him again - he's just too confused and emotionally unstable right now. However, I wouldn't be surprised one bit if at some point even in the near future he changes his mind again and shows up in scenes for Flavaworks or other gay companies. So I guess there's still a little bit of hope for all the Suspense fans out there
. And even if he never performs in gay porn again, I'd bet my life on the fact that he *will* be chasing after guy-on-guy sex again....if he hasn't already, LOL!
This situation with Suspense has definitely hit me the hardest. I'm dealing with it much better now, but for the first couple weeks I was truly depressed. I've been putting off breaking the bad news on the blog, but I knew this was an entry I'd have to write sooner or later. Due to the intimate, reality-porn approach of my movies, I think many of you end up feeling almost as close to the models as I do, and it just wouldn't be fair not to write this "epilogue" to their BBA stories.
The new year's obviously gotten off to a pretty rough start, but I'm trying to focus on the positive and move on.
I honestly believe that all of my models are unique and irreplaceable to a certain degree. But I also agree with a porn producer friend of mine who likes to remind me that Mother Nature has provided us with a limitless supply of beautiful boys. For every hot model we lose today, there are dozens of others still waiting to be discovered, just as hot if not hotter than the one that got away.
Without a doubt, Lil Steve, D-Rel, and Suspense were major BBA players in 2009, and they will definitely be missed!
But it's a NEW YEAR and I'm very proud of BBA's newest models such as Beno, Tori, and Kenny, all of whom are developing loyal fan followings of their own and have already done some exciting work for me so far.
Instead of dwelling too much on the past, I'm trying to focus on the sexy boys still working for me as well as the new boys I've yet to discover, wondering who the Lil Steve's and D-Rel's and Suspense's of 2010 will be!
Posted by Michael Galletta at Wednesday, January 27, 2010 1:00 PM 
Categories: News and Updates,Behind the Scenes,More About The Movies,More About The Boys
Categories: News and Updates,Behind the Scenes,More About The Movies,More About The Boys
Keep your chin up man. I can remember being that age (18 - 25) . . . your mind changes about as much as the direction of the wind.
I also think that the fact that they are now trying to distance themselves from the reality of what they've done only adds to the credibility of your site. You've done fantastic work with these brothas, and that's a real accomplishment. Mourn the loss for a few, but keep looking forward.
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Thanks for your words of encouragement, KayJay! I remember having some pretty wild mood swings when I was that age as well, so I know I can't get too upset or take it personally. It's just an unfortunate part of this job that can be discouraging and difficult to deal with at times.
"Mourn the loss for a few, but keep looking forward" - that is wise advice! It's sometimes easier said than done, but I know that is the best attitude to have when things like this come up.
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ok mike whats the good news? you got beno to bottom? lol!! you said you had bad news and good news
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never mind. i think that you'd gone as far as you could with these 3 guys and already got the best out of them. i wasn't expecting anything else from lil steve or d-rel anyway - they seemed very reluctant! and suspense had pretty much done everything there was to do. who knows what goes on in some people's heads - i sure am glad that religion has all but died out in the uk!
look on the bright side - it keeps things fresh! new meat!!
and i'd take beno and tori over them anyway
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I can see why you would've been feeling so hurt, Mike, but the fact that Suspense acted like that towards you says bucket loads about his own internal conflicts. I hope you're feeling better now. It's a shame about D-Rel because he was a little hottie but I think you were spot on in what you said about him.
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That sucks, but maybe it was for the best. But at least there's still Beno, Tori and sexy-ass Kenny.
Keep up the good work, Mike.
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My God. If I had known you were going through this I would have moved heaven and hell to get your number and call you myself. Once again, you and I seemed locked in some bizarre cosmic energy where we experience similar things at almost the exact same moment. My experiences haven't been like yours but they have been mentally and spiritually challenging; to say the least.
I do hope you don't let this discourage you. I know that for me, producing porn (and now filming for someone else) has become my life. It's something I thoroughly enjoying doing. And you know what? Despite the problems, the aggravations,the realities that we have come to know and accept, it's not enough to deter us from stripping down all those hot males and filming their beauty for others to enjoy!
Chin up, buddy. I send you a huge hug.
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Well Well Well... what else can be said but A Job Well Done by MIke..... Its not everyday that you get to turn out a hot sexy appealing Model... and you have done that with such class and tact that you should be proud of yourself and the work that you have provided to your loyal viewers like myself..Being a producer its a very thin line with business and pleasure and sometimes you have the pleasure of experiencing both..(D-REL)...lol..(SUSPENSE)...LMAO.. life is about growing up and having different experiences that will either make you a stronger man or make you fall flat on your face...for the three models that you have lost...a moment of silence,...now that we have paid them their due respect to the beauty of the artform that they so willing contributed to its time to move on and allow the less confused men out there to come experience what BBA has to offer. They will be truly missed but I heard a saying a long time ago that really proves true right about now.... One mans trash is another mans treasure...opportunity is knocking at the door for bba and I am sure some sexy ass guys will CUM knocking real soon.... Mike dont you ever second guess yourself for someone elses actions... remember before anything else you are a professional business man and these models willingly performed all their acts..Keep your head up high and remember 2009 was a great and successful year so 2010 is time to take it to new and more adventurous conquest...forever a loyal fan of BBA...... XAVIER
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This is just horrible, omg! What a way to bring in the New Year, time for Beno and DJ to take the stage and show us what BBA is all about!! lol
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Mike don't let this faze you one bit! This happens to the largest and the smallest of sites. Factors of life and tradition some times get in the way but you will weather this for it most likely will not be the last time it happens to this site. I certainly support you and the site, when dealing with guys like this its hard on the amature level because they have to face the challange of people finding out and this site is becoming a fast growing in notariaty. Just get ready to grow and keep on moving into 2010 with your head up and a smile on your face! The true fans and somewhat friends got your back!
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First I wanna say I admire you for sharing the shit like this, most producers don't let you know ANYTHING other than who they fucked or fuckin but you always give the heads up. Preciate that
Second, WOW!! kinda hit me hard with this one. But truth is they knew what was up and that it was gonna be a risk that they would be exposed. Desperation can make you do some weird things trust me I know. But you always got a choice and if you knew that you was gone get exposed you should thought it thru plain and simple. And I mean you doing something that's gone be exposed to the public and what do you expect to happen? That nobody will find out? They kinda hot (IMHO -_-) but to me nothing loss nothing gained by them leaving. Movin right along!! (seriously they ain't worth the depression to me)
Brian Ima be honest with you dude, they some trifflin bitches. They didn't even have to do the "bitch" move on you like some punk. All they had to do is say they wasn't wit it no more and I'm sure you would have understood. But they just had to act like some bitches and act all like girls that don't wanna see they man no more
Well im done ventin' so keep ya head up and keep makin these hits!!!
Peace
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oops my bad I meant Mike
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I was too busy last week to respond to your individual comments, but I wanted to take a moment to express my gratitude for all of the encouragement, advice, and support in response to this blog entry. I honestly wasn't sure how people would respond to this news, so it's a relief to receive these words of understanding and support and know that for most of you, your enjoyment of my movies is bigger than any one or two models! Thanks!
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