“Why Didn’t Dragon Fuck Shyne?!?” And Other Questions

Dragon and Shyne In Shower

Since I was away from the blog last weekend, I got a little behind on some of the comments and questions posted by blog readers. I decided it might be easier to post my responses all in one place, rather than buried in earlier posts.

An anonymous reader wrote:

lol shynes facial expression is the same in every frame i can tell he was really uncomfortable. btw how much do u pay these guys to do gay scenes? just wonderin if u dont mind me asking.

Shyne was definitely a little tense and nervous at first. This was only his second video, so he’s still getting used to being on camera. Keep in mind that he also just met Dragon for the first time a few minutes earlier, and suddenly he’s naked and showering with a total stranger! I find that totally hot, but it’s also understandable why he might look a little reluctant and uncomfortable at first. Luckily for us horny spectators, he relaxed enough to make his first sex scene with Dragon VERY hot and memorable.

I also think the screenshots can be misleading sometimes. Those of you who’ve already seen Shyne in Breakin’ In A Young Thug will know what I’m talking about when I say that he is a lot more easy-going and friendly and funny in the actual video than his photos sometimes suggest.

As far as pay is concerned, I’m still in the process of figuring out a pay rate that is fair to the models but also affordable enough that I can earn enough of a profit to continue making videos. I’d rather not reveal anything specific, other than to say that the pay varies. The “gay for pay” videos like Every Straight Thug Has A Price and my upcoming video with Cortez were outrageously (and recklessly) expensive, the solo scenes MUCH cheaper, and the oral/dildo scenes like those in Black Boys Who Crave White Cock and Breakin’ In A Young Thug were somewhere in the middle.

Another anonymous reader wrote:

You know even though you consider yourself an amateur, from these stills at least, it looks like you’ve got some kind of skills. How about sharing a little of what you know, especially about where you find these guys and how you convince them to come back to your place, disrobe and do porn.
Thanks for the compliment! One of the ideas behind keeping this blog is to do exactly what you ask and offer my customers, potential customers, and those who are just plain curious, an exclusive glimpse behind the scenes of my amateur videos. If anyone has specific questions they’d like to have answered on the blog, please post them as comments or email me directly at BlackBoyAddictionz@gmail.com.

In response to the screenshot previews for The Schoolboy and the Thug, another anonymous reader stated:

sorry not my thing….but good luck with it anyways i like the ones where you service a hot black dude one on one oh well laterz.

Don’t worry, I still plan on offering plenty of videos featuring interracial scenes between me (or other white guys) and young black males. But some of my videos will also feature black guys with other black guys, albeit with a less-edited amateur vibe that isn’t always present in other all-black gay porn.

I realize that some of the fans of my interracial scenes won’t be interested in the black-on-black scenes, and a lot of the guys who enjoy the all-black content won’t like the interracial videos. In the short time I’ve been doing this, I’ve already learned that I’ll never be able to please everyone ALL of the time. All I can do is make the kinds of videos that turn ME on, and gamble that enough of you will be turned on by the same things.

Another anonymous reader asked:

It definately looks like Shyne relaxed and got into it. LOL. Did he tell his girl he was moving more furniture?

The ongoing joke with Shyne is that he could be talking on the phone with his GRANDMA and his dick would be pointing up in the air! I hear all these horror stories about models who can’t get hard for the camera (I’ve even experienced this myself on a couple recent occasions), and it makes me feel incredibly lucky to have discovered such a natural and cooperative performer like Shyne.

Dragon and Shyne
Joe Schmoe posted the following:

Think Shyne may be Bi-Curious? looks hot..I love how dragon is all boned up before the action starts…True arousal…cant be faked…and its obvious that he’s turned on…Dont get that in a “studio” flick.. The contrast between “eager” Dragon…and somewhat reluctant… at first.. Shyne..Is hot as fuck……

I couldn’t agree more! That’s exactly what makes it so hot for me as well. I had no idea how Shyne and Dragon would respond to each other, but it was fun to watch as it became obvious within the first five minutes that Dragon couldn’t wait to “get better acquainted” with Shyne (can you blame him?!?).

About Shyne’s sexuality….my sense is that he’s a lot closer to “bisexual” than “straight.” If Jay is on the “straight” end of the Kinsey scale  and Michael is on the other, I’d put Shyne somewhere in between (but closer to Jay than Michael).
These two readers made the same request/suggestion:

In #2, I think Dragon should run up in Shyne nice ass.

*and*

How come dragon didnt fuck shyne?..That would have been a best seller? Anytime in the future?

Trust me, I’ve been dying to see Shyne take some dick since I got my first look at his smooth, tight little muscle-butt in Breakin’ In A Young Thug!

Shyne's Ass
I guess there were a couple reasons I didn’t ask Shyne to get fucked in The Schoolboy and the Thug:

First, I felt like I’d already pushed his “submissive” boundaries to their limits in Breakin’ In A Young Thug (taking three dildos, sucking my dick, letting me cum on his face, etc.), and I thought he deserved a change of pace by fucking the hell out of Dragon’s awesome ass 😉 .

Second, a selfish part of me wanted to save Shyne’s first time getting fucked on video for an INTERRACIAL scene….preferably with ME gettin’ up in that cute little butt first, LOL!

Not to worry, though….there’s only so much I can do with my little white dick, LOL!!! I’d still love to see him take a real ass-pounding from a thick black dick like Dragon’s!

And last but not least, another anonymous reader posted:

Keep doing what you’re doing because it is working!!! This video looks so damn hot and I hope it will be added to the list of your streaming films on AEBN. When that day comes, I’m probably gonna have to take a sick day off work.

Thanks for the encouraging feedback! Comments like this always bring a smile to my face 🙂 . I’m glad to know that so many guys are looking forward to this video.

Of course my preference is that everyone buy the DVD when it comes out tomorrow (I get a larger cut from the sales than I do from AEBN), but I understand that a lot of guys (myself included) prefer the convenience of AEBN. As a general rule, videos show up in my Online Theater about a month or so after the DVD version goes on sale.

[Update: You can now enjoy The Schoolboy and the Thug along with my entire collection of movies by joining BlackBoyAddictionz.com!]

But please, don’t blame me if you get fired for taking too many “sick days” 😉 !

Thanks for the questions and comments, guys!

 

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Scary Street Thugs, Dirty “Older” White Guys, and Other Reflections

I wanted to take a few moments to respond to a couple things brought up in the “blog comments” lately. One customer/reader recently posted the following:

Your video Every Straight Thug Has A Price is my favorite format for interracial action. Great job! My only “criticism” would be a more or less personal one based on my own preferences–like the fact that you seem to feature thugs who are a little too “wholesome” and non-threatening (as opposed to some of the great-looking street thugs who are more inked up, muscled up, and gangsta-looking)–and I think your videos would benefit from leaning more toward the less wholesome looking black dudes. Again, that’s a personal point of view. I just don’t find twinks very appealing–black, brown, or white. There’s something incredibly hot to me about “taming the wild beast”, so I would love to see you in some vids where you explore, fondle, and service some black thugs who look more convincingly “street.” Cortez is a good starting place. He’s more masculine in appearance than the pretty boiz. Just a thought. Hope you don’t mind the feedback.

I don’t mind the feedback at all! I *ALWAYS* welcome feedback from readers and customers when expressed in a respectful and constructive way (as you did above).

I appreciate the fact that you made it clear that your comments come out of your own personal erotic preferences. I haven’t been doing this for long, but I’ve already realized that I’ll never be able to please everybody all of the time. The best that I can do is make the kind of porn I’ve always enjoyed watching, or wanted to see, with the kind of guys that turn me on.

That said, I have some good news AND bad news for you. The bad news is that unlike you, I *do* like the slim, smooth, youthful “twink” and “pretty-boy-thug” look, as long as the guy is masculine (and even there I’ll make exceptions from time to time). Shyne, for example, has the kind of tight, toned body that drives me absolutely wild with lust, even though he isn’t very muscular or tattooed or “threatening.”

But the good news is that I *also* share your attraction to the “great-looking street thugs who are more inked up, muscled up, and gangsta-looking,” and I promise you that I’ll do my best to feature some of them in future videos.

Keep in mind that it’s more challenging to convince such types to appear in gay porn, and there also comes a point when a thug can look a little TOO “street” and “threatening” for me to feel smart and safe about inviting him into my home to shoot porn. But I promise that I’ll make an effort (I already have a couple prospects), because I’d ultimately like to feature a diverse collection of black and latino guys in my videos.

The same guy continued:

By the way, I bought your first Every Straight Thug Has A Price but I would never personally purchase a black on black action video because I can’t “project myself” into the fantasy. (I like fantasizing that I’m doing what YOU’RE doing when you spend lots of time exploring those beautiful black bodies without getting your own ass kicked!) lol Keep up the great work. I love how you take your time instead of rushing the action. You’re one of the few who understands that sensuality and sexuality are equally important.

Thanks for the compliment….I’m glad that you appreciate the laid-back, leisurely pace of my videos. I’m sorry to hear that you don’t have an interest in my black-on-black videos, but I totally understand where you’re coming from. I suspected that some of the folks who enjoy my interracial scenes wouldn’t be interested in the black-on-black scenes, and vice versa.

I doubt it will change your mind, but I’m still very much present in the black-on-black scenes, as a voice behind the camera who interviews the boys beforehand, coaches them through the experience of their first porn-shoot, poses occasional questions throughout the scene, etc. As a viewer, it’s still possible to identify with me as a horny white guy lucky enough to have two sexy young black guys in his apartment, watching with breathless suspense and excitement as they touch for the first time and let me guide them through their first porn shoot. I know it’s a stretch, but I had to give it a shot 😉 !

Last but not least, I got a kick out of JoeSchmoe and VersatileBoy’s comments about the way I sometimes refer to myself as an “older white guy.”

I guess that’s just my own insecurities coming out. It’s sort of my way of making clear that my videos are not about MY looks, body, dick size, etc.

Plus the whole “older white guy” thing can be a hot visual fantasy, in my opinion. ESPECIALLY with the straight guys, but even with a cute gay boy like Dragon, it’s exciting to think that with a little cash and persuasion, a gay guy who’s *13* years older than him, and not at all his type, can still get his hands on a young stud like him.

But don’t worry….In real life, I don’t really think of myself as “old.” In fact, I usually feel like I’m still 21 or 22, and it sometimes comes as a rude awakening when I realize there’s now a widening generation gap between me and the guys I like to date and hook up with!

Maybe that’s part of the reason I’m enjoying this porn project so much. It allows me to enjoy the young black guys I drool over without feeling like too much of an old creep (it’s “just business,” as opposed to asking a guy out or hitting on him in a club or on the street).

Or maybe it’s just the opposite? Maybe this is my way of preemptively EMBRACING the status of “dirty old man” before somebody ELSE has the chance to label me as such???

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Pizza and Porn With Dragon

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[Update: You can now watch the full-length, uncensored version of this scene, along with all of my other movies, when you join BlackBoyAddictionz.com!]

I realize that Shyne has sort of stolen the spotlight in the lead-up to last Friday’s release of Breakin’ In A Young Thug, but he’s not the only hot black boy I’ve enjoyed filming lately! Many of you have been asking about my new model Dragon since I first introduced him on the blog a few weeks ago. Don’t worry….he’s still around, and will be showing up in SEVERAL of my future videos.

I finally finished editing the video featuring Dragon’s porn debut, and I’m very happy with the results. It will include Dragon’s solo scene (the first scene I shot with him), as well as the long afternoon video-shoot he filmed with Shyne about two weeks later. It was incredibly stressful trying to cut the raw footage down to two hours, but I guess it’s better to have TOO MUCH hot content than not enough, right??? In addition to bringing you Dragon’s first porn appearance (and only Shyne’s second), it’s also my first video to feature hardcore anal action!

I’m calling it The Schoolboy and the Thug, because one of the most entertaining (and arousing) things about the video is watching these two boys from very different backgrounds, who have such hilariously contrasting personalities, meeting and fucking for the first time. Dragon is a cute “college boy” with a wholesome, boy-next-door look and an energetic, talkative, and outgoing personality. Shyne is a young thug from the “hood” who is much more “chill” and laid-back.

Throwing these “opposites” together was a bit of a gamble on my part, but that was also a big part of the amateur-porn thrill for me (and hopefully for you as well)….seeing what kind of sexual chemistry, if any, these two guys might have with one another. I’ll reveal more details (and previews) soon, but for now I’ll just say that it turned into a very memorable afternoon….in a GOOD way!

The reason I felt like blogging about Dragon tonight, however, is that he was hanging out at my place for most of the afternoon and evening. He came over to film a scene, but neither of us was in a rush, so we ended up watching TV, ordering pizza, and getting better acquainted.

MUCH better acquainted, in fact 😉 ! I’d been eager to get my hands on Dragon ever since his first solo, but I’d always behaved myself, not even copping a quick feel during his action scene with Shyne. In fact, Dragon had initially said he didn’t want to do any “interracial” scenes, and even though I hadn’t pressed him on it, I assumed that meant LEAST of all a scene with an average-looking white guy who’s 13 years older than him.

But I have a way of always wanting what I can’t have, and I couldn’t stop thinking about the tempting possibility of enjoying this college-boy cutie for myself. During Dragon’s recent video-shoots, I think I earned his trust and friendship, and as a result he’s grown a lot more comfortable with the idea of doing a scene with me. Of course my offer of a generous financial compensation certainly didn’t hurt either, and he finally agreed to come over and perform in his first interracial porn scene.

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A “Thug” By Any Other Name….

 [Note to Readers: The images in this post are NOT “Black Boy Addictionz” models! ]

Sagging Thug
Since I use the term “thug” in the titles of three out of my four DVD’s so far, I thought I’d post a few reflections on what I mean when I use that word to describe one of my models.

I know some guys (usually white) think that if a black guy’s wearing a du-rag and sagging his pants, that automatically makes him a “thug”.

I know other guys who seem to think that a guy has to be built like a body-builder, covered from head to toe with tattoos, and participate in at least one drive-by shooting a day before he can earn his “thug” credentials!

I think my own definition of a “thug” falls somewhere in the middle of those two extremes.

Some of my models have already been to prison at least half a dozen times. That fact, plus their cocky attitude and laid-back “swagger” make them definite “thugs” in my book.

Of course there are a lot of young black guys who like to CALL themselves “thugs,” but for them it’s more about a kind of attitude and lifestyle-choice than it is about any actual violent or criminal activity. For them it’s more about the hip-hop fashions (sagging jeans, “grills” in their mouths, “Timbs” on their feet, chains hanging low around their necks, etc.) and a “hood” mentality that celebrates greed and ego, along with values such as “staying fresh,” “money over bitches,” “no snitching,” etc., etc.

I’d place Shyne (Breakin’ In A Young Thug) closer to this category. He proudly and repeatedly insists that he’s a “thug,” a “G,” but for him I think it’s more about a sensibility, a lifestyle, than anything truly dangerous or criminal. Although he does come from the “hood,” and I know he spent close to a year in prison a couple years ago for charges that were later dropped, so it’s at least a little bit more than just talk.

Here are a few “thug” pics I like, collected from various places on the web:

Lil Romeo In Boxers

Thug Showing Dick
Thug With Huge Dick
People will always disagree on what truly makes a guy a “thug.”

Some readers/customers have already expressed wishes for me to film scenes with models a little more rough-looking and “hard” and threatening than the models I’ve featured so far, and I’ll do my best to satisfy those requests.

What I hate more than anything, however, is when gay porn companies present one of their models as a “thug,” except that when the guy strips out of his sagging jeans and backward baseball-cap, he turns out to be one of those “girly” gay black boys you might see prancing and twirling in tight pants and muscle-shirts at your local gay club on a Friday night 😉 !

I promise that I’ll never do anything fake or insulting like that, EVER! When I describe one of my models as a thug, I’ll always have an honest justification for it. For example, neither Michael (Black Boys Who Crave White Cock) nor Dragon are “thugs,” and I’d never think of describing them as such.

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Short and Quick, or Long and Slow :)?

Now that I’ve got some hot video footage piling up, I’ve been thinking a lot about how I want to release all of it.

Most porn companies, and even a lot of amateur producers, seem to stick to the traditional formula of three-to-five scenes per film. Every scene cuts almost immediately to the hardcore action, which is then heavily edited so that it all fits neatly into a predictable, fast-paced, 15-to-20-minute scene.

I know that a lot of guys….probably MOST, in fact….prefer their porn that way. They want it quick and simple, and couldn’t care less about who the performers are, or what went on behind the scenes. Such scenes allow them to enjoy a variety of models in different combinations, and if they don’t like one scene, they can always skip to the next with a simple click of a button.

While I can certainly enjoy those videos, I’ve always found them somewhat frustrating. Back when I first discovered gay porn in my late teens, one of my favorite studios was Bel Ami. While I loved the stunning, youthful beauty of their mostly-straight Eastern European models, I remember getting annoyed time and time again when I’d be jerking off to a hot scene of two gorgeous boys kissing, making out, etc., and then BAM!!! with no warning or transition whatsoever, there’d be a closeup shot of a dick pumping in and out of an asshole. I always HATED that (and still do)! I wanted to SEE the transition from cock-sucking to fucking, even if it was clumsy or awkward or “boring.”

For me, having a sense of a scene’s CONTEXT is at least half the thrill of watching porn! I want to know about the performers’ backgrounds and personalities. Is it a model’s first time appearing in a porno? Is one of the models an actual straight boy, doing his first gay scene because he’s broke and desperately needs the money? Is one of the models a “top” who’s been offered a little extra cash to “bottom” for the first time? Are the models in a scene actually boyfriends in real life, or are they total strangers, meeting one another for the first time just moments before the cameras start rolling?

I also want to feel like I’m really THERE watching an actual porn-shoot, not some glossy, tightly-edited “fantasy.” Again, it’s the REALITY and PSYCHOLOGY of porn that excites me, the voyeuristic thrill in the fact that real people are consciously having sex in front of a camera, taking directions from the producer, pausing for breaks between “takes,” etc., etc.

I always feel a little cheated when a video has too many “cuts.” I *WANT* to see every raw, spontaneous, occasionally awkward, sometimes clumsy, frequently hilarious behind-the-scenes moment of a video-shoot. That’s why I was so addicted to Cocodorm‘s 24/7 cameras, live nightly shows, and “Real World”-style porn, and why I love so much of the amateur stuff sold by AMVC, and why I’m trying my best to make this a blog that will enhance people’s enjoyment of my videos with its exclusive behind-the-scenes content.

That’s also why I think most of my own videos will only feature one or two scenes. I know this format will probably bore a lot of guys to tears, but I honestly don’t think I could do it any other way.

If you’ve seen any of my first three videos, you already know that I like to take my time 😉 . I try to let my viewers get to know my models by interviewing them before the “action” parts of their scenes begin. I feel like getting a sense of a guy’s personality, interests, erotic exploits, sexual likes and dislikes, etc., helps build anticipation and makes it ten times more exciting when we see him strip out of his clothes and perform for his first time ever on camera! I also like to savor every moment, trying my best to capture it from the hottest angles possible. As a result, I usually end up with a good three or more hours of footage for every scene I film.

Take the scene I filmed with Shyne and Dragon last Wednesday, for example. They were at my place filming off-and-on for over three hours, and for most of that time the camera was running. Now I could cut out the part where they meet each other for the very first time (I literally had my camera shoved in Dragon’s face as he walked through my front door!)….or their awkward, nervous interaction while I interviewed them both side by side….or the dozens of hilarious and entertaining comments made by both boys as their way of dealing with the range of emotions throughout their first porn-shoot (and first sexual encounter with each other). I could cut all that out and trim the footage down to a simple, straightforward 20-minute scene, but in my opinion such a scene wouldn’t come anywhere CLOSE to being as hot and memorable as the longer, leisurely, minimally-edited version.

At first glance it might seem unfair to charge $20 for a DVD containing just one or two scenes, but I’m hoping there are enough guys out there who will appreciate the relaxed pacing and intimate, documentary-style feel of my movies. I’m trying as hard as possible to make viewers feel like they’re right there in that little apartment with me and the models, enjoying a front-row seat to a live amateur porn-shoot. When one looks at it like that, I hope the $20 seems worth it.

I’m curious to hear what others think about one-or-two-scene videos. Feel free to post your comments, or email me any time at BlackBoyAddictionz@gmail.com.

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Dragon’s Friday Night “Audition”

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Here are a few photos from my Friday night video-shoot with Dragon, the sexy 19-year-old “college boy”-type that I told you about in my previous post. I think Dragon is cute as hell. He’s got a GREAT body, but like I mentioned before, it’s his face that drives me absolutely crazy. His large, almost sad-looking puppy-dog eyes are incredibly seductive. He’s also got this wide-eyed boyish innocence and energy that made working with him a lot of fun….but don’t be fooled, the kid’s also got a naughty side!


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Dragon’s video-shoot was very last-minute….he basically saw me online and asked if I was still interested in filming him (he’d submitted an application a few weeks earlier), we talked briefly on the phone, and a couple hours later he was taking off his clothes for my camera. It wasn’t easy for him to get here…his car is totaled, so he had to ride the “Metro” to my side of town AND walk a bunch of blocks to get to my place. A lot of guys would have said “fuck it,” and never shown up, but Dragon really impressed me with how hard he worked to get here.

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And he didn’t disappoint me one bit. Like the rest of my models so far, he was really nervous at first, but by the end of the evening he was joking around and seemed to be feeling much more comfortable and confident in front of the camera. While Dragon might have an adorably cute “baby face,” his DICK is very much that of a young MAN ! And that ASS….DAMN, what an ass! Like I said in my previous post, he’s got one of those plump round asses that literally pops right out of his pants, just BEGGING to be touched and licked and fucked! Just check out these photos if you don’t believe me…. (more…)

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Can’t Get Enough J-Bone!

J-Bone

When I first got home after being away for the holidays, I was excited to see that my copy of Joe Schmoe‘s latest flick, Black Street Cock 4 Rent #2, had arrived in the mail. Porn addict that I am, I quickly popped it into my DVD player, even before taking the time to call friends or unpack 😉 .

I’m usually not crazy about “solo” videos, and most of the guys featured are too beefy for my tastes. But I purchased this DVD for one reason and one reason only: J-BONE!!!

It’s hard to put my finger on it, but there’s something about this tall, slim, straight-boy wannabe-thug that REALLY turns me on!

His deep, raspy voice is sexy as hell, and I love the way he tries to mask his insecurities about dick size, sexual orientation, etc., with a cocky, macho swagger. It’s especially funny the way he repeatedly reminds the cameraman and his viewers that his performance is “just for the women.”

His dick isn’t very big, and although it surprised me a little bit at first, I still think it looks nice and tasty. Plus, he’s clearly self-conscious and awkward about it throughout the scene, which I actually found sort of cute and endearing.

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J-Bone’s solo scene is one of the hottest I’ve seen in awhile.

His smooth, slender body is just the type I prefer, and I love the way his large, shiny-white teeth stand out against his beautiful dark skin. His dick looks a lot better than he seems to think, and his charcoal-black balls had me wishing I could reach through the screen for a quick grab-and-taste.

And say what you will about the size of his dick, the boy still manages to pump out an impressive, creamy-white load that will have all the cum-lovers out there drooling for a mouthful.

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For me, the hottest thing about J-Bone’s scene is his obvious nervousness about doing something like this in front of a gay cameraman, and his refusal to do anything “gay.”

My favorite moment in J-Bone’s scene is when the cameraman asks J-Bone to turn around and show his ass, and J-Bone has this priceless expression, sort of like, “you want me to do WHAT?!?” I actually laughed out loud and had to rewind several times to watch it again. It’s one of those classic amateur moments that just can’t be faked!

There’s another hilarious moment when Joe (?) crawls onto the bed with J-Bone and tries to cop a feel, and J-Bone practically leaps off the bed to keep the man away.

I hope Joe won’t give up easily, because I’m dying to see J-Bone in a scene with another guy, even if it’s only getting a handjob or blowjob at first. What I’d REALLY love to see, however, is J-Bone paired up with one of Joe’s bisexual “redneck” buddies….now THAT would be something to see!

If Joe can’t talk him into it, I hope he’ll send J-Bone my way….with some time and money, I think I could turn him out 😉 !

My only critique of the video is that there weren’t enough ass-shots for a butt-lover like me, and it seemed rather heavily edited at times. Personally, I’d rather hear and see just about EVERYTHING that goes on, even though it might be considered “blooper material” by some.

You can check out Joe Schmoe’s videos here.

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From “Preacher’s Kid” To Pornographer….

A fan of my videos recently asked:

Can I ask what made you want to get into this. Money, or just the love of hot guys and filming?

Well, it’s definitely not the money! If money was my primary motivation, I probably would have already quit by now. It will probably be a very long time before I gain enough exposure, produce enough videos, and establish enough of a loyal customer-base to make any kind of profit off my videos. ESPECIALLY if I want to make more “straight-seduction/gay-for-pay” videos like Every Straight Thug Has A Price. I spent so much money to make that video happen that I’ll probably be in a NURSING HOME before I ever make a profit off of it 😛 !!!

Of course it would be NICE to get a steady flow of cash coming in, but only because that will make it possible to produce more videos.

From a very early age, I’ve just always been a very sexual person, and there’s always been an intense voyeuristic aspect to my sexuality.

Not to get too psychoanalytical or anything, but I’m sure a big part of that was due to the fact that I was a “preacher’s kid,” and raised in a very religious, sexually repressive household.

When I was as young as eight or nine, every Sunday I’d obsessively scour the pages of that week’s “TV Guide,” eagerly seeking out anything that might feature nudity or sexual content. Sometimes the “TV Guide” descriptions alone were enough to stimulate my horny prepubescent imagination. But when I was feeling ESPECIALLY daring, I’d set the VCR timer for whatever naughty flick was on at 2 a.m., and then secretly watch it the next time I was lucky enough to have the living room to myself 😉 .

I also remember accidentally walking in on this cute little black girl from my preschool class when she was naked and sitting on the toilet….and that thrilling image of her naked brown bottom accompanied my very first experimentations with masturbation.

That fascination with nudity and anything sexual….especially as a forbidden spectator….only intensified as I got older.

One of my favorite fantasies was to imagine the hottest of my junior-high schoolmates (because I grew up in poor, inner-city neighborhoods, it just so happened that most of them were black 😉  ) standing side-by-side, fully-clothed, in an empty room. I think the gist of the fantasy was that on any given day I could pick out any one of them for my sexual pleasure.

“Raymond” – I’d call out the name of the cute, skinny boy with the light-brown skin who sat next to me in homeroom. He’d step forward. Then I’d instruct him to slowly remove his socks, then his shirt, then his pants, etc., etc., until his naked body was totally revealed.

Of course for the longest time I wasn’t quite sure what to do with him after that, LOL. But it’s funny when I think back on it now, to realize how even as a kid I was imagining myself as a porn director, years before I’d ever see my first porn video!

Of course when I discovered that such a thing as “pornography” existed, my horny imagination went crazy! My little brother and I shared a room, and sometimes he would come out of the shower and do a little strip-tease as he pulled down the towel around his waist. Then he’d jump on the bed and begin wildly humping his pillow (I think he might have seen a real porn video before I did, LOL), while I would jokingly coach him and pretend like I was filming the whole thing with an imaginary camera.

So yeah….I think it’s fair to conclude that this is something I’ve always fantasized about doing 🙂 .

I actually came very close to making a porn video back in college. It started out as a late-night conversation, joking with my gay roommate, but the more we talked about it, the more we wanted to do it. We even started drafting a script, planning out possible locations for filming, and sent out an “invitation” email to everyone in our circle of gay friends that we thought were cute and open-minded enough to participate. Sadly, I got cold feet at the last minute, and it never ended up happening.

But it’s always been one of those intense nagging fantasies that has stayed with me over the years. When I discovered AMVC.com close to ten years ago, I knew that they would probably be the most affordable and practical way for me to start a porn company, should I ever find the time, money, and courage to pursue it.

A few months ago, I had a little extra money, and a couple friends who encouraged me to try it….

….and now my dick and balls are staring everybody in the face on AMVC’s homepage 😉 !

 

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My Behind-the-Camera Voice: “Sexy” or Just Plain Annoying?

A fan recently wrote:

As for your upcoming new vid…FINALLY, a long-awaited glimpse of your FACE (attached though it will be to a large and rude appendage)!

I hope you will see fit to continue with the on-camera conversations with your thugs. As you know, there are fans of your VOICE in the audience!

LOL!!!

Well….Like most people, I hate the way I sound on audio and video recordings. So it’s difficult to comprehend how anyone could find anything “sexy” or appealing about it, but hey, if it adds to your enjoyment of my videos, I’m happy!

And don’t worry, I definitely plan to continue incorporating in-depth interviews/conversations as part of all my future videos. I know it will probably annoy the impatient guys out there who want to see hardcore fucking in the first five minutes of a video, but personally I think getting to hear a model’s stories, personality, nervousness, etc. only builds anticipation and intensifies one’s enjoyment of the action when it eventually starts.

In fact, I think that might be the #1 thing that makes amateur porn so much hotter than the professional stuff, the sense that you’re watching REAL people with unique personalities, fantasies, fears, dreams, etc….showing off their bodies and having sex on camera, many times for the very first time. Professional porn might be hot to watch, but there’s always something detached and impersonal about the assembly-line stream of one scene after another, featuring models who either present a fake persona or show us very little of their real personality (because they’re never given the chance).

But back to my voice….I think the toughest part of editing my first two videos has been resisting the temptation to edit out every time I say something! I can’t tell you how many times I’ve cringed while playing back the raw footage, thinking to myself, “God, what a stupid thing to say!” or “Now why the hell did I have to go and ruin the moment by saying that???” or “Wow, I sound like such a sleazy, horny old man!”. I’ve actually given into the urge to cut those comments a few times, but for the most part I’m leaving them in.

And while I’m glad some people like my voice, keep in mind that I’m NOT supposed to be the “focus” of these videos! I’m afraid my actual face, body, and dick really leave a lot to be desired. When I started this project, I had every intention of staying BEHIND the camera at all times. The only reason I reluctantly did the second video with Jay was because I didn’t have any white guys to work with, and Jay was so damn gorgeous to me, and so back-and-forth about doing a gay scene, that I felt like I had to “seize the moment” and make it happen.

Sorry for rambling…..but I guess this is the point of a blog, right?

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