Controversial Porn: Part 3
Posted by Michael on September 18th, 2008
Awhile back, I shared a few thoughts about the potentially “controversial” nature of some of my interracial videos (you can read my original reflections here and here). A blog reader recently posted the following reaction, to which I’d like to respond:
Let’s put it this way: if you were not CONSTANTLY putting your models in subservient, some would say demeaning, and most specifically positions that are demeaning such as feeling their faces and shoving your hands into their mouths as if you were inspecting them like a prospective slave buyer or doing that whole “Look at me! I’m a white guy pulling these fake thugs asses apart” thing that you do that have nothing to do with “topping” as a sexual position, then your furious blizzard of words above might hold more weight.
You compare yourself to other studios, but this is as PERSONAL to you as much as it is a business.
I’m even tempted to give you the benefit of the doubt that YOU don’t believe that you are engaging in racially informed/offensive behavior (despite your upbringing) but then your whole business is racially informed, is it not?
You have your fans who will defend you, including your models. Nothing new there. But seriously, you need to objectively stand back and look at how you actually behave in your videos. I’m not asking you to stop making videos. Only to more closely examine that heartfelt self-justification you made.
I don’t expect this to be published on the site. But then it doesn’t [have?] to be.
Here are some of my initial thoughts in response:
I actually have no problem recognizing the controversial and potentially offensive nature of some of my interracial videos. That was sort of the whole point of those entries: to acknowledge the negative reactions that some of my videos may provoke, but at the same time point out the hypocrisy, inconsistency, and unfairness of those criticisms (in my opinion).
You suggest that I like to put my models in “subservient” positions, and you describe my videos as “demeaning” and reminiscent of slavery. While you’re certainly entitled to your opinion, I’d like to point out that those are purely subjective, debatable value judgments on your part. Some people will watch my videos and find them similarly disturbing and offensive, while others will see no problem with them whatsoever. Each viewer is going to evaluate my videos (and porn in general) through the filter of his or her own personal experiences, prejudices, and subjective erotic tastes.
The claim that some of the imagery in my videos reminds one of a white slave-owner inspecting a potential “purchase” is an absurd and unfair accusation, in my opinion. I guess by the same logic, any white man (or white woman, for that matter) who touches a black male sexually is similar to white slave-owners who felt up potential slaves on the auction block during the time of slavery. I mean, where do you draw the line when making arguments like that?!? Slaves were also frequently forced to strip naked as a part of such inspections. Am I also somehow imitating a sadistic plantation overseer when I instruct my models to take off their clothes for their solo scenes?!?
Listen, I’m all for recognizing and redressing the legacies of slavery, both social and economic. But I think we head down a very slippery slope when we start seeing echoes of slavery in every interracial encounter, both sexual and non-sexual. If we want to pursue such statements to their (il)logical conclusions, I suppose we could also say that white supervisors barking orders at black employees is also reminiscent of slavery. Or black waiters and waitresses serving dinner to white married couples at the local “Applebee’s.” Or white men coaching athletic teams in predominantly black neighborhoods. In fact, one could argue that any time a black person has sex with a white person, regardless of who’s doing the penetrating, it’s similar to the days of slavery. In my opinion, arguments like that are usually pretty stupid and pointless, and they ultimately distract from the very real and persistent racial inequalities we should be talking about.
The overall point I was trying to make in my original blog entries was that things like objectification, domination/submission, conquest, seduction, etc., are universal themes in pornography. If one enjoys and approves of such themes in erotica, then it’s not fair to cry “racism” when those same themes are explored in an interracial context.
Putting The “Fantasy” In “Fantasy Football”
Posted by Michael on September 7th, 2008
Like a lot of gay boys, I was never very interested in sports growing up. I was raised in a family of sports fans, however, so I’ve had to spend countless hours watching baseball, basketball, and football games on TV. Even as a kid, I quickly discovered that watching sports didn’t have to be torture….in fact, it could be a lot of fun when I focused more on the athletes than the game itself!
Over the years, I’ve gained a greater appreciation for sports, but I still always watch them with one eye on the game and one eye on the bodies under the uniforms. What healthy, full-blooded gay man doesn’t imagine his favorite athletes stripping and showering in the lockerrooms after a hot, sweaty game???
Football’s always been one of my least favorite sports to watch, mainly because the guys tend to be a lot heavier than I usually like, and all of those helmets and heavy padding end up hiding too much of their bodies. Since I joined my family’s “Fantasy Football” league last year, however, I’ve discovered that even the NFL offers plenty of stroke-worthy eye-candy to inspire countless post-game fantasies.
So in honor of football season’s opening week, here’s a little tribute to a few of my favorite NFL hunks:
I’m usually attracted to the slim, toned, young-looking guys (there’s a reason I named my company “Black Boy Addictionz”), but sometimes I can find myself just as turned on by a powerful hunk of a man like T.O.
A lot of my friends turn up their noses in surprise and disgust when I confess my little crush on T.O., but I can’t help myself. There’s just something I find so hypnotically sexy about this man! I love the way his strong, white teeth flash against the darkness of his skin. I love his large lips, strong jaws, and beautifully sculpted body. And there’s no way you can look at a body like his and not suspect that there’s a massive piece of meat swinging between those legs!
I know that a lot of people can’t stand T.O. because of his reputation for being a bit of an arrogant prick both on and off the field, but I have to admit that’s one of the things that turns me on about him. In the photo above, it looks like he’s saying, “What the fuck you waitin’ for?!? Get over here and start suckin’ this dick!”
That’s an order I’d gladly obey without hesitation 😉 . Hell, he could choke me with that dick and I wouldn’t complain….and there aren’t many guys I’d say that about!
I also get the sense that he knows how to fuck….although in reality he’d probably crush my pale, puny body and send me limping my way to the emergency room after he was through with me, LOL! Still, it would probably be worth it for a wild romp in the sack with a stud as sexy as him!
Based on the photo above, it looks to me like T.O.’s also got a damn fine ass! Ahhhhh, what I wouldn’t give for the chance to bury my face between those dark, sweaty ass-cheeks after one of his Sunday afternoon games! I bet that hole’s nice and tight and tasty too!
My Latest Olympic Crush
Posted by Michael on August 20th, 2008
I’m sorry for posting so little from my own videos lately, but things should hopefully pick up soon as I film new scenes and prepare for release the footage I’ve already shot.
In the meantime, I couldn’t resist sharing a few horny reflections about the latest athlete to make my mild obsession with the Beijing Olympics even more enjoyable 😉 .
I’m talking about Usain Bolt, the 21-year-old, gold-medalist sprinter from Jamaica. (I guess my dick has no sense of national loyalty, LOL).
Damn, what I wouldn’t give for one night….hell, even just one hour….with this stunning dark-skinned Adonis!
Everything about him makes my dick hard….his beautiful black skin….his wide, expressive eyes….
….those thick, sensual lips….
….and that flawless, tightly muscled body!
Not to mention the fact that his shorts seem barely able to contain what appears to be one massive piece of meat hanging between his legs! I’m not trying to take anything away from Bolt’s impressive athletic achievements, but I know I can’t be the only one whose gaze goes immediately down to that heavy appendage flopping wildly all over the place every time he runs!
Another Reason To Watch the Olympics….
Posted by Michael on August 11th, 2008
I’ve really been getting into the Olympics this weekend.
At first, watching these physically flawless athletes performing one incredible feat after another just makes me feel like an out-of-shape, lazy, worthless excuse for a human being. I see the ambition, determination, and self-discipline of these athletes who devote every waking hour of every day of their lives for years to train their bodies and perfect their athletic skills….and then I think about how much “fast food” I eat, and all my bad couch-potato habits, and how sometimes it’s even hard for me to find the time and motivation to film an amateur porn video for cryin’ out loud, and of course I end up feeling like a big loser.
Once I get past all the self-loathing, however, I’m able to relax and enjoy the spectacle and suspense and drama of the whole thing. I didn’t think I was going to get drawn into it this time around, but so far I’m hooked.
But the thrill of the competition, the human drama, the national pride, and all of that other high-minded crap is only part of the Olympics’ entertainment value for me. I’m not going to lie, half the time I’m drooling over some cute young gymnast’s ass or desperately hoping that NBC has at least one gay cameraman who will give us a close-up shot of Michael Phelps’ soaking-wet Speedos as he jumps out of the pool after a race 😉 .
So you can imagine what a pleasant surprise it was to stumble across Cullen Jones, the only black guy on the U.S. men’s Olympic swim team, and as of earlier tonight, only the second African-American swimmer to win a Gold medal.
I was expecting plenty of eye-candy….watching an international spectacle like the Olympics really reminds me just how many specimens of stunning male beauty there are around the globe. But a black guy? On the swim team?!? So much for the stereotypes, LOL!
As you can tell from the photos below, he’s a real hottie for sure. He has a flawless body, beautiful skin, perfect teeth, and a sexy smile….
Gossip-Hungry Gay Boys and Jealous Drama Queens, Spoiling Amateur Porn For Everyone!
Posted by Michael on July 30th, 2008
I’m beginning to see how the stereotype of the cold, heartless porn producer originated. Once again, I’m feeling like it’s almost impossible for a producer to have any kind of compassion or concern for his models, and still survive and succeed in the business. Once again, I’m torn between my concern for my models as people, and my need to make smart choices as a businessman.
Last weekend, I received a panic-stricken email from one of my models, begging me to take down anything that shows his face. Apparently, the wrong gay people found out about my videos and started spreading gossip and malicious rumors throughout the gay online community in my city, eventually reaching friends and family outside that community as well. One person even stooped so low as to publish a profile on one of the more popular black hook-up sites under the screenname “We_GotAIDS,” listing names, photos, and personal info about several of my models.
I’m 99% certain that one of the people behind it is a guy who’s contacted me several times expressing a desire to do some videos for me. This past Saturday night, he grew hostile and threatening when I politely turned him down. You know how sometimes you can tell that somebody’s not quite “right” just by looking at their pics? This guy looked like a hateful, conniving asshole from the start, and it didn’t take him long to prove my assumptions correct. Unfortunately, he seems hell-bent on spreading gossip and lies about me and my models, thus polluting my pool of potential models (at least those who are gay and bisexual) and potentially causing real harm to the lives and reputations of guys I care about.
I really am too naive and trusting sometimes. When I started this amateur porn project, I totally underestimated the number of hateful, vindictive, ugly human beings out there who don’t give a second thought about destroying other people’s lives if it brings them a little attention; the “crabs in the barrel” who can’t stand seeing others succeed.
One of my models is taking the whole thing particularly hard. He knew when he filmed his scenes there was a risk that people would find out, but he was still mostly closeted and emotionally unprepared, I think, to be exposed in such a cruel and humiliating way. I have tried to tell him that he shouldn’t let the harassment get under his skin; that he is better than the hateful people trying to tear him down; that he still has a bright future ahead of him; that I care about him as more than just a cute model; and that he is welcome to come over any time he needs to get away or just wants a sympathetic listener.
Dragon had to suffer through something similar when his videos first came out. I also remember witnessing the same kind of thing happen several times when I was a regular “Cocodorm” member. It’s no wonder that the black gay porn industry is dominated by feminine bottom-types who couldn’t hide their sexual orientations if they wanted to…..all the masculine boys are driven into the closet by these shameless gossip-queen bitches who have nothing better to do than expose amateur porn stars!
And that’s one of the ironies about all of this….it’s the guys who love to watch porn and complain about the lack of hot masculine porn stars who are the same ones exposing and attacking their peers who choose to make porn as HIV-infected “sluts” and “ho’s,” thus driving more hot boys away from the porn industry and into the closet.
I don’t know if it’s worse in the black community in general (the flip-side of something usually so positive, a more expansive and intimate family and social network?); or maybe my city is just too damn small, even for an amateur producer like me; or maybe the black gay boys in my city are just particularly vicious and judgmental???
Whatever the cause, the fact that this has already happened to almost all of my models is extremely frustrating and depressing. Making videos with the types of guys I’m attracted to is going to grow increasingly difficult if there’s a mafia of gossip-hungry drama-queens constantly waiting for every blog update as their next chance to expose another one of my models. Every time I post screenshot previews or video clips, I will have to worry that the models involved (at least the gay and bisexual boys) will most likely be exposed, mocked, and humiliated. Even the straight boys are at risk for exposure if some evil gay boy happens to recognize them.
I’ve already removed the blog posts featuring a certain model’s action scenes, at least until he goes off to college in a few weeks, even though it will certainly have a negative impact on my video sales. But I can’t exactly do this every time a model gets “outed,” and I don’t want to settle for filming porn that only features out-and-proud gay men.
I’m really at an emotional and professional impasse here….
Tales From the Corps: The Boot (An X-Tube Classic)
Posted by Michael on July 30th, 2008
Click above to check out one of my all-time favorite X-Tube clips. It’s a little bit on the rough side, but I think many of you will enjoy it as much as I have.
Because it’s animated, I honestly didn’t think I’d enjoy it at first….but it turned out to be more arousing and memorable than 99% of the live-action porn I’ve seen! It includes so many of my most intense erotic fantasies and fetishes: interracial sex, rough/aggressive sex, coerced sex, straight males having gay sex, military sex, and facials.
Not only do I love the artist’s delightfully wicked imagination (so similar to my own!), but I’m also so impressed with his inclusion of seemingly minor but erotically powerful details such as precum leaking from dicks, saliva dripping from chins, sweat pouring from foreheads, and tears running down cheeks.
If this kind of thing turns you on as well, you should stop by MCBoy21’s X-Tube profile, check out his other videos, and take a minute or two to tell him how much you appreciate his hard work!
Whose Ass Was Tastier?!?
Posted by Michael on July 16th, 2008
I just got the following message from a fan of my videos. It made me laugh, and I thought I’d share it with my blog readers:
i am not one pressed for dick, but really wouldnt turn down a chance to suck off cortez. so have you heard from him recently and how is jay, you know they have to do a video together next right lol and whose dick and ass was tastier cortez or jay?
Of course that is an impossible question to answer, LOL! That’s like asking a little kid to choose between candy and ice-cream 😉 !
Both Jay and Cortez had two of the sweetest asses and most delicious dicks I’ve ever had the privilege of tasting! If I absolutely had to choose, I’d probably pick Jay’s dick over Cortez’s, and Cortez’s ass over Jay’s.
I liked the way Jay’s smaller-sized dick slid smoothly in and out of my mouth; the smooth texture of its caramel skin; as well as its salty-sweet taste.
Jay’s ass, on the other hand, had a clean, almost soapy, taste to it, probably because his video-shoot started in the morning, only an hour or so after he’d showered.
In contrast, I filmed my scene with Cortez well after midnight, and his ass had that sweaty, musky taste and smell that only a young thug’s ass can have. Plus, his asshole was so tiny and unbelievably tight, and it was a huge turn-on to be granted (reluctant) access to that most private, protected part of his body that even his countless “bitches” had never dared to explore!
I agree that a scene with Jay and Cortez together would be a porn dream come true, but I wouldn’t get your hopes up. I think we’ll see 50 Cent elected President before that happens, LOL! Even if by some miracle they both agreed to do it, I doubt I’d have enough cash on hand to make it happen. Still, it’s a hot fantasy….
Back From Vacation and Horny As Hell!
Posted by Michael on July 14th, 2008
I’m finally back from a fun and restful summer vacation!
I love spending time with my family, but I’m always horny as hell when I come home! As I’ve mentioned before, my family is extremely religious and sexually repressive, so that’s part of the reason I always feel so restless and hyper-sexual when I get back. Growing up, when my parents brainwashed me into thinking that even masturbation was a sin, I think it was almost inevitable that one day I’d rebel by becoming an amateur pornographer 😉 ! Maybe if they’d raised me in a brothel or nudist colony, I would have turned out to be a conservative preacher like my Dad. Life’s just hilariously ironic and fucked-up that way.
I spent most of the past couple weeks at my grandparents’ lake cottage in a very rural area, where I don’t think there was a single black person within a radius of a hundred miles, LOL! At least there were lots of cute, small-town white boys everywhere, usually strutting around in nothing but shorts or bathing suits, showing off their tight teenage bodies and deeply tanned skin. I love those cocky, straight, working-class white boys almost as much as I do the black boys, so that made the depressing non-existence of the latter at least a little more bearable 😉 !
It was great to come home to the exciting news that my videos earned the top three spots on AMVC’s Top Twenty List for the month of June!
The Schoolboy and the Thug landed in the #1 spot for the third month in a row.
The Schoolboy and the African earned the #2 spot, which was a nice surprise considering that it didn’t go on sale until the last weekend in June.
And Corrupting Cortez came in at #3, still not breaking even on the foolish amount of money I spent on that video but at least it’s a modest success!
To all of you who have purchased my DVD’s, I want to say a warm, enthusiastic THANK YOU! Every one of my movies that you add to your DVD collection or watch in my Online Theater gives me a little additional spending money to invest in more videos starring hot black boys like Shyne, Dragon, Eureka, DJ, Cortez, etc., as well as new boys I’ve yet to film! Your encouragement and support means the world to me!
I also appreciate all the comments left on the blog while I was out of town, and I’ll try my best to reply to most of them in the next few days!