A fan recently wrote:
As for your upcoming new vid…FINALLY, a long-awaited glimpse of your FACE (attached though it will be to a large and rude appendage)!
I hope you will see fit to continue with the on-camera conversations with your thugs. As you know, there are fans of your VOICE in the audience!
LOL!!!
Well….Like most people, I hate the way I sound on audio and video recordings. So it’s difficult to comprehend how anyone could find anything “sexy” or appealing about it, but hey, if it adds to your enjoyment of my videos, I’m happy!
And don’t worry, I definitely plan to continue incorporating in-depth interviews/conversations as part of all my future videos. I know it will probably annoy the impatient guys out there who want to see hardcore fucking in the first five minutes of a video, but personally I think getting to hear a model’s stories, personality, nervousness, etc. only builds anticipation and intensifies one’s enjoyment of the action when it eventually starts.
In fact, I think that might be the #1 thing that makes amateur porn so much hotter than the professional stuff, the sense that you’re watching REAL people with unique personalities, fantasies, fears, dreams, etc….showing off their bodies and having sex on camera, many times for the very first time. Professional porn might be hot to watch, but there’s always something detached and impersonal about the assembly-line stream of one scene after another, featuring models who either present a fake persona or show us very little of their real personality (because they’re never given the chance).
But back to my voice….I think the toughest part of editing my first two videos has been resisting the temptation to edit out every time I say something! I can’t tell you how many times I’ve cringed while playing back the raw footage, thinking to myself, “God, what a stupid thing to say!” or “Now why the hell did I have to go and ruin the moment by saying that???” or “Wow, I sound like such a sleazy, horny old man!”. I’ve actually given into the urge to cut those comments a few times, but for the most part I’m leaving them in.
And while I’m glad some people like my voice, keep in mind that I’m NOT supposed to be the “focus” of these videos! I’m afraid my actual face, body, and dick really leave a lot to be desired. When I started this project, I had every intention of staying BEHIND the camera at all times. The only reason I reluctantly did the second video with Jay was because I didn’t have any white guys to work with, and Jay was so damn gorgeous to me, and so back-and-forth about doing a gay scene, that I felt like I had to “seize the moment” and make it happen.
Sorry for rambling…..but I guess this is the point of a blog, right?
