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Coming Soon: YouTube Celebrity & Exotic Dancer Freaky J Visits BBA!

Posted by Michael on July 2nd, 2014

Freaky J Visits BBA

It’s been an interesting and eventful year here at BBA so far!

We’ve welcomed back some iconic fan favorites like Dragon, Lil Tyga, and Suspense as part of the 5th Anniversary Series.

We’ve seen the shocking return of one of BBA’s most attractive and popular straight models, doing things on camera that I never in a million years thought I’d ever see him do – including taking a mouthful of cum and getting fucked in the ass!

We’ve enjoyed the spontaneous and passionate “reunion” between Cory and Tay, including the surprising twist of skinny, big-dicked “top” Tay finally taking a dick up his cute, hairy ass.

And of course we’ve witnessed straight high school basketball star Isaiah‘s slow but steady progression into “gay for pay” porn, going from refusing to do anything with a guy no matter how much money I offered, to reluctantly fucking a guy (while insisting on wearing a blindfold), all the way to the more recent extreme of letting a man lick his ass, fuck his mouth, and splatter a hot, messy “nutt” all over his stoic face!

But the year’s only halfway over, and BBA’s scorching hot summer season has only just begun!

Anyone who’s visited YouTube or X-Tube over the past five years should immediately recognize our most recent special guest.

Freaky J became an overnight sensation on YouTube several years back thanks to his erotic striptease and sexy dance videos. Like most straight black guys making the same type of videos, he initially limited his target audience to “strictly for the ladies.” But unlike most straight black guys making the same type of videos, he quickly (and smartly) realized and eventually embraced the fact that many if not most of his loyal followers were gay and bisexual men.

Michael In The Movies

Posted by Michael on October 15th, 2013

Michael Shows Off D-Rel's Ass

I just wanted to take a moment and respond to the recent complaints from several of you about my participation in some of the scenes.

BBA has always featured a wide variety of models and themes. In an older blog entry, I compared my diverse collection of movies to an all-you-can-eat buffet.

I realize that this variety can be frustrating for viewers who only enjoy one type of scene or another. Some people love the interracial and “gay for pay” scenes but think the black-only scenes are conventional and boring. Other people enjoy the black-only scenes but think my interracial scenes are unappealing and even offensive.

At the end of the day, everyone has different tastes and I am never going to be able to please every viewer all of the time!

Noah's Ass

Anyone who’s been following my work from the very beginning knows that one of BBA’s basic themes has always been the taboo fantasy of an older white man exploring his “addiction” to younger black males….and more uniquely, his addiction to young black male ass (“white men need ass too!”).

As I clearly advertise in the site’s preview area: “If you’re turned on by the idea of an older white cameraman enjoying the ripe young bodies of his black-boy models, I’m confident you’ll enjoy my movies!”

Wanna Fuck My Black Ass?

Now I can certainly understand and respect that these types of scenes are not going to be everybody’s cup of tea. My interracial scenes always have been and always will be controversial. The recent comments left by some of you on the blog are actually pretty mild and tame compared to some of the hostile things I’ve heard over the years.

Controversial Porn: Part 3

Posted by Michael on September 18th, 2008

Michael Galletta and Day Day

Awhile back, I shared a few thoughts about the potentially “controversial” nature of some of my interracial videos (you can read my original reflections here and here). A blog reader recently posted the following reaction, to which I’d like to respond:

Let’s put it this way: if you were not CONSTANTLY putting your models in subservient, some would say demeaning, and most specifically positions that are demeaning such as feeling their faces and shoving your hands into their mouths as if you were inspecting them like a prospective slave buyer or doing that whole “Look at me! I’m a white guy pulling these fake thugs asses apart” thing that you do that have nothing to do with “topping” as a sexual position, then your furious blizzard of words above might hold more weight.

You compare yourself to other studios, but this is as PERSONAL to you as much as it is a business.

I’m even tempted to give you the benefit of the doubt that YOU don’t believe that you are engaging in racially informed/offensive behavior (despite your upbringing) but then your whole business is racially informed, is it not?

You have your fans who will defend you, including your models. Nothing new there. But seriously, you need to objectively stand back and look at how you actually behave in your videos. I’m not asking you to stop making videos. Only to more closely examine that heartfelt self-justification you made.

I don’t expect this to be published on the site. But then it doesn’t [have?] to be.

Here are some of my initial thoughts in response:

I actually have no problem recognizing the controversial and potentially offensive nature of some of my interracial videos. That was sort of the whole point of those entries: to acknowledge the negative reactions that some of my videos may provoke, but at the same time point out the hypocrisy, inconsistency, and unfairness of those criticisms (in my opinion).

You suggest that I like to put my models in “subservient” positions, and you describe my videos as “demeaning” and reminiscent of slavery. While you’re certainly entitled to your opinion, I’d like to point out that those are purely subjective, debatable value judgments on your part. Some people will watch my videos and find them similarly disturbing and offensive, while others will see no problem with them whatsoever. Each viewer is going to evaluate my videos (and porn in general) through the filter of his or her own personal experiences, prejudices, and subjective erotic tastes.

The claim that some of the imagery in my videos reminds one of a white slave-owner inspecting a potential “purchase” is an absurd and unfair accusation, in my opinion. I guess by the same logic, any white man (or white woman, for that matter) who touches a black male sexually is similar to white slave-owners who felt up potential slaves on the auction block during the time of slavery. I mean, where do you draw the line when making arguments like that?!? Slaves were also frequently forced to strip naked as a part of such inspections. Am I also somehow imitating a sadistic plantation overseer when I instruct my models to take off their clothes for their solo scenes?!?

Listen, I’m all for recognizing and redressing the legacies of slavery, both social and economic. But I think we head down a very slippery slope when we start seeing echoes of slavery in every interracial encounter, both sexual and non-sexual. If we want to pursue such statements to their (il)logical conclusions, I suppose we could also say that white supervisors barking orders at black employees is also reminiscent of slavery. Or black waiters and waitresses serving dinner to white married couples at the local “Applebee’s.” Or white men coaching athletic teams in predominantly black neighborhoods. In fact, one could argue that any time a black person has sex with a white person, regardless of who’s doing the penetrating, it’s similar to the days of slavery. In my opinion, arguments like that are usually pretty stupid and pointless, and they ultimately distract from the very real and persistent racial inequalities we should be talking about.

The overall point I was trying to make in my original blog entries was that things like objectification, domination/submission, conquest, seduction, etc., are universal themes in pornography. If one enjoys and approves of such themes in erotica, then it’s not fair to cry “racism” when those same themes are explored in an interracial context.

Featured Studio of the Week: Chocolate Cream

Posted by Michael on September 16th, 2008

When it comes to mainstream black-only porn, I think one of the best producers in the business these days is Chocolate Cream (aka “B.C. Productions”). I’ve been a huge fan ever since I first discovered their movies a couple years ago (I don’t think they’ve been around much longer than that). Their videos bring a raw energy and fresh vibe to a market that was starting to become repetitive and predictable, in my opinion.

To begin with, they consistently introduce some of the finest young black men I’ve ever seen in porn. I love the fact that while a lot of the other black production companies seem overrun with gay, girly “bottom”-types, most of Chocolate Cream’s models are masculine and laid-back and could easily pass for “straight” on the street.

My biggest complaint about most black gay porn these days is probably the fact that the sexual roles are so rigidly, predictably inflexible. I can usually determine within a scene’s first ten seconds which model is going to do the fucking, and which model is going to get fucked. I know a lot of guys enjoy watching masculine “tops” paired with feminine, eager “bottoms,” and I can respect that. But personally, I find such scenes to be sort of dull and unexciting most of the time. Where’s the sense of suspense or seduction or conquest in such scenes?!? When I’m in the mood to see a man fuck a woman, I’d rather watch straight porn and witness the real thing 😉 .

The producers at Chocolate Cream, on the other hand, seem to understand that there’s something intensely forbidden and thrilling about watching a masculine man….the kind of guy you’d never for a second suspect of “messing around”….surrendering his ass to another man’s dick.

This isn’t the case in all of their scenes, but there are still plenty of scenes where I honestly have no idea who will be fucking whom until it actually happens. Even better, in my opinion, are the scenes where the guys who’ve starred as skilled, aggressive “tops” in earlier scenes end up surprising the hell out of me by flippin’ over to take some dick! I’m still waiting for a couple of my favorite stars to give up their asses….but where with most other companies I don’t even bother to get my hopes up (i.e., Tiger Tyson, Breion Diamond, etc.), at least with Chocolate Cream there’s always a good chance that with a little patience my dreams may come true.

There’s also a gritty, urban, amateur vibe in their videos that a lot of the other companies lack. Most of the scenes are filmed in crowded apartments, bedrooms, basements, and hotels. The only non-amateur thing about them is the fact that they usually depict fictional, semi-scripted role-playing scenarios….but even those visual fantasies usually bring to the screen a gritty “hood” flavor that feels fresh and authentic!

These scenes frequently test the boundaries of gay black porn by exploring (some might say exploiting) various stereotypes and taboos: street thugs robbing and “raping” other young black men at gunpoint; straight homeboys “on the DL” cheating on their girlfriends with each other; ruthless drug-dealers demanding head and ass from desperate corner-boys who’ve fallen behind on their payments; straight boys getting “turned out” by horny gay boys; and much, much more!

I can see how some people might think these scenarios are crossing the line, but as I’ve stated before, I feel like porn is one area where we should feel free to indulge and explore even our most “politically incorrect” fantasies. In the wrong hands, such scenes could easily come off as cheesy and outrageous, but most of the time they work; mainly, I think, because a lot of the models are believably masculine and “straight-appearing,” and the sex is almost always gritty and aggressive and verbal.

Here are exclusive links to a few FREE GALLERIES featuring hardcore clips from several Chocolate Cream productions:

Gallery #1

(The sexy “top” in this scene goes by the name of “Dream,” and he’s one of the hottest new faces I’ve seen in awhile. I’m betting he’ll make a name for himself in the business, and I hope he’ll give us the pleasure of watching him take some dick in the near future! He’s definitely one of the rising stars I’m keeping my eye on these days!)

Gallery #2

Gallery #3

(“JR” – the lucky “top” in this scene – is one of my favorite black porn stars right now. He doesn’t show much personality in his scenes, but I love how it seems to be all about business for him. He fucks with an aggressive, no-nonsense, relentless kind of seriousness and urgency that is incredibly hot to watch. You really have to check out some of his other scenes to see what I’m talking about. He’s another one I’m still hoping will give in and “bottom” one of these days….hell, that’s probably why he’s so interesting to me).

Gallery #4

(“Venom” – the guy getting fucked in this scene – is/was another one of my all-time favorites, although I feel like he’s been somewhat over-exposed lately. I’ve lost count of how many scenes I’ve seen him perform in, and after his thirtieth scene or so, the thrill of watching him starts to wear thin. Still, he’s one of black gay porn’s greatest, in my opinion, and I will never forget how hot it was the first time I saw him go from being an aggressive “top” to a reluctant but sexy “bottom”!)

Here are some of my personal “favorites” that you can stream, rent, or download in my Online Theater (just click on the photos to check out the video):

Vinnie Russo’s Straight Boy Seductions

Posted by Michael on June 4th, 2008

If you’re familiar with the amateur porn of “Vinnie Russo” (Sneek Peek Productions and Dawghouse Video), it probably won’t come as a huge surprise that his videos have been a major influence on my own productions. I didn’t even realize the extent of that influence until going back and re-watching a few of his videos recently.

Vinnie’s videos are about as authentically amateur as “straight boy” porn can get. They are filmed in a regular apartment (sometimes you can even see Vinnie’s cat in the background), with just a basic camcorder and tripod. There’s no cameraman, no fancy lighting, and no flashy editing.

Vinnie is a stocky, well-hung, blue-collar-type Italian guy who invites young, masculine “thugs” and working-class guys (white, black, and Latino) into his home for “discreet” encounters.

The guys in his videos are allegedly straight, although I suspect that most of them are probably closer to what we’d call “bisexual” or “on the DL.” But unlike some of the porn producers that try to pass off queeny, lisping gay boys as STRAIGHT boys going “gay for pay,” Vinnie’s guys are undeniably masculine in a way that is still very much a turn-on. Many of them are in and out of jail, a lot of them are heavily tattooed, and most have wives or girlfriends.

One of the things I love most about Vinnie’s scenes is the way he leaves the camera running while the guys smoke and enjoy a couple beers before the action begins. We get to hear them talking about the “bitches” they fucked that week, or some fight they got into at the neighborhood bar, or what a relief it is to be out of prison after being locked up for three months.

What I love is just how unscripted and spontaneous the whole thing feels. We feel like we’re right there in Vinnie’s living room, like it’s us chatting with the hot straight studs rather than Vinnie. We start to get a sense of their personalities, which in my opinion makes the action that follows all the more arousing to watch.

Every video follows pretty much the same routine: The young straight stud lies back in a chair, or on a couch, or on a bed, sometimes with a cigarette in one hand and beer in the other, and with straight porn playing in the background, while Vinnie kneels between his legs and gives him a blowjob.

In some videos, Vinnie moves his mouth a little lower and licks the straight guy’s asshole. There are few things hotter, in my opinion, than watching a gay man tongue-worship a hot straight boy’s sweaty, usually-OFF-LIMITS asshole.

Japanese Straight Boys Submitting To Gay Sex Acts For Cash

Posted by Michael on June 4th, 2008

If I had to choose, I’d say that out of all the porn I’ve seen in my life (and that’s A LOT 😉 ), the BIGGEST influence on the videos I’ve made so far has been some of the gay porn produced in Japan.

I first discovered it a few years ago, and it’s left an indelible mark on my erotic imagination ever since. I’m not exaggerating when I say that it’s the most intensely arousing gay porn I’ve ever seen. And if the idea of straight boys having gay sex for money turns you on as much as it turns me on, I think you’ll agree!

Most “gay for pay” porn in the United States is ridiculously, insultingly fake at worst….and highly suspicious at best. What I love about Japanese porn, especially the stuff produced by the studios Japan Pictures and Field Express, is its AUTHENTICITY.

Every scene follows a simple but highly arousing routine: A toned, usually stunningly gorgeous athlete (we’re often shown scenes of him playing his sport beforehand, many times with an actual high school or college team) sits alone in a bedroom or living room somewhere. A man behind the camera talks to him in Japanese for a long time (making me wish to God I knew Japanese), and my sense is that they’re talking about the guy’s heterosexuality, his feelings about what he’s agreed to do for money, etc. Maybe I’m way off, but regardless, the lengthy interviews reveal the guy to be authentically masculine, down to earth, nervous, aloof, reluctant, etc.

The young athlete strips and starts jacking off. Eventually an older Japanese guy (usually in his 30’s and not bad-looking himself), who is oddly enough almost always wearing goggles, begins slowly massaging and fondling the young man’s naked body.

There is little doubt in my mind that for most of these guys it is their first time being touched by another man: The athlete is always visibly uncomfortable, and there’s something about the way he tightly shuts his eyes, or the way his body tenses up, that feels anything but faked.

The older guy then force-kisses him (again proving the boy’s straightness, as the younger guy usually clenches his lips shut in disgust at first, then eventually surrenders….very reluctantly….to the older man’s insistent tongue).

Controversial Porn: Part 2

Posted by Michael on June 4th, 2008

I see that my previous post provoked quite a few passionate and thoughtful reactions (as I suspected it might). I want to thank those of you who took the time to respond, and for keeping the conversation at an intelligent, thought-provoking but respectful level.

I don’t want to digress TOO much into a serious intellectual debate….this is still a PORN BLOG after all 😉 !

But I would like to elaborate on my previous post and try to explain in a little more depth who I am and why I’m making the types of videos that I am (something I will continue doing through this blog in the weeks and months to come). Some of this will echo what’s already been expressed by others.

Let me begin with the obvious: I LOVE BLACK GUYS 😉 !!!

Young, MASCULINE black guys in particular. I’ve been sexually attracted to black males for as long as I can remember.

Unlike a lot of white guys with similar attractions, I’m not a “size queen” with a fetish for “big black cocks.” My interest in interracial sex is not motivated by any sense of racial inferiority OR superiority.

I’m not seeking out the thrill of breaking a social taboo just for the sake of doing so.

It’s not even primarily an “opposites attract” kind of thing, an interest in something “exotic” or “different,” although I do enjoy the physical contrasts between black guys and white guys (hair texture, skin complexions, lips, asses, noses, etc.), and I don’t think there’s anything wrong with acknowledging or enjoying those differences in an erotic context.

I realize that nobody’s sexual desires can be attributed to ONE cause, but I do think the origin of my attraction is fairly simple and “innocent.” I grew up as one of the only white kids in predominantly black neighborhoods, so by the time I started to figure out at a pretty young age that I liked boys more than girls, most of those same-sex desires were directed at my black friends in school, church, and the neighborhood, sort of by default.

We can probably all agree that sexual desires formed in one’s childhood and adolescence are almost impossible to change later in life. It just makes sense that my original objects of lust (and in some cases, LOVE) continue to attract me well into adulthood.

As I started to explain in my previous post, I’ve also been obsessed with straight males for as long as I can remember, and a variety of related erotic themes including seduction/corruption, prostitution, economic coercion, resistance/reluctance, etc.

I’m also really turned on by themes of domination and submission. I’ve never gotten into the “S&M” or “leather” scenes. In fact, what I consider “domination” and “submission” is usually comically (some might say PATHETICALLY) tame in comparison. It’s basically just me being, for the most part, a “Top”….in terms of my sexual attractions and preferences, at least. (I like to joke that I was born with the desires of a “top” but the dick of a “bottom,” LOL!).

I love getting head and I love fucking ass. Few things excite me more than looking down at a cute boy giving me head, or lying with my naked body smashed against a hot young stud on his stomach as I thrust my dick deep (okay, as deep as I’m able, LOL) in his butt. I love finger- or dildo-fucking a tight young ass, and I love “nutting” on a hot guy’s face. I even like getting a little “rough” from time to time. By that I just mean grabbing a guy’s head while fucking his face, maybe slapping his ass while fucking him, nothing terribly kinky or imaginative I’m afraid. I’m actually embarrassingly awful at “dirty talk,” however….some of you might already have noticed this in my videos 😉 .

[Of course I also have a submissive side, and I’ve enjoyed that dynamic in interracial sex many times as well, moreso in the past than recently however. I *DO* suck dick in most of my scenes, although I don’t think I’m particularly good at it!]

There is NOT, however, any kind of exclusive or causal relationship between my attraction to black males and my interest in these themes. All of the “turn-ons” described above are just as much a part of my erotic fantasies/desires involving white boys, Latino and Hispanic boys, Thai boys, Japanese boys, and just about any race/ethnicity you can think of. I chose to focus on black boys (and hopefully a few Latino/Hispanic boys) primarily for two reasons:

First, they’re probably my preference (mostly for the reason I explained earlier).

Second, I thought I could bring something at least a tiny bit original to the world of amateur black porn. For example, most all-black scenes, even the more “amateurish” ones, don’t take their time and let you get to know the models. And obviously gay interracial scenes featuring white “tops” with black “bottoms” are incredibly rare (although I feel like this has been slowly changing over the past couple years). ESPECIALLY where the black “bottom” is a MASCULINE gay or bisexual boy, or a straight guy going “gay for pay!”

I can understand how the imagery in some of my videos might disturb or offend some people, black guys in particular. If you fit into that category, all I can do is encourage you to avoid my videos for the sake of your own mental and emotional peace. Or better yet, ignore the stuff that turns you off but stick around for the hot all-black content I still plan on producing!

But you know what??? For every guy who tells me that my videos are racist, exploitative, offensive, etc., I hear from at least ten others (including MANY black guys!) who think they’re hot as hell and say they can’t wait to see more!

At the end of the day, porn is almost always going to involve some degree of objectification and “exploitation.” That’s even a big part of its appeal, the idea that beautiful young men (of ALL races) are willing to show off their bodies and perform sexual acts (with varying degrees of enthusiasm) in exchange for a financial reward.

I also think that porn is one place where it’s OKAY to be a little “politically incorrect.” If you really think about it, porn (both gay AND straight) is all ABOUT stereotyping, racial and otherwise! It’s a medium that sort of demands such simplification in order to grab the viewer’s attention with a basic but powerful fantasy.

Burly firefighters, dumb blonde twinks, horny frat-boys, submissive Asians, lusty Italians, the list goes on and on. And yes, it also includes the “dangerous,” super-hung black thug from the “hood.”

In my everyday non-porn life, I can take my “political correctness” to extremes that annoy even my most liberal friends. But I feel like porn is one arena where we should all relax a little bit and enjoy the enormous erotic potential of character types and social stereotypes (as well as “twists” on those stereotypes).

Dragon is a hell of a lot more than a “schoolboy,” and Shyne (or Cortez, for that matter) certainly doesn’t fit neatly or consistently into the “thug” category. But my title isn’t meant as an insult to their complexity as human beings! Rather, it’s a fun and catchy way to understand and enjoy their video!

Similarly, domination and submission has always been a big part of both straight AND gay sexuality, and certainly it’s always been part of what makes a lot of straight and gay porn so hot. Seduction, conquest, sexual domination, rough sex….they’re present in just about every type of porn I’ve seen, including straight porn (interracial and non-interracial), lesbian porn, all-black gay porn, non-black gay porn, etc., etc.

Granted, there’s a wide spectrum ranging all the way from cutesy-cuddly-boyfriend-porn, to ultra-violent S&M torture-porn. But there’s almost ALWAYS at least a common theme where one or more participants is seduced, conquered, enjoyed, used, dominated, etc., and the other participants get to seduce, conquer, enjoy, use, dominate, etc. the submissive partner.

This is why things like gangbangs, double-penetration, face-fucking, and “facials” are such popular and predictable elements in porn. I don’t believe that gay sexuality is ALWAYS like this, or that it SHOULD always be like this, but in PORN it usually is. And I’m fine with that!

But as I see it, one either has to be fine with the dominant/submissive, top/bottom dynamic ACROSS THE BOARD, or oppose it altogether. You can’t pick and choose.

It can’t be “okay” for an aggressive black top like Thugzilla to verbally humiliate and fuck the shit out of submissive white bottoms and then NOT be “okay” for an aggressive WHITE top to do the same with black guys.

It can’t be acceptable for studios to pay straight young WHITE boys to go “gay for pay” in the enormously popular “frat boy” and “military” genres, but “racist” and offensive for studios to do the same thing with straight young BLACK guys.One shouldn’t assume racist or otherwise suspicious motives every time a white guy “tops” a black guy any more than one should assume that all black guys who top white guys are anti-white, or black men who fuck other black men want to demean and humiliate their own race, or straight male porn-stars who fuck (and even dominate) women are misogynists.

I hope this better explains where I’m coming from! And don’t worry, I’ll be back with more PORN tomorrow!

Controversial Porn and My “Catch-22”

Posted by Michael on June 4th, 2008

When I started Black Boy Addictionz last fall, I knew that some of the videos I wanted to make would be controversial. I think a mischievous part of me actually ENJOYS pushing people’s buttons….just ask my family and friends, I’m sure they’d tell you that I’ve mastered the art of provocation 😉 !

I anticipated that a lot of guys, both black and white, would be turned off and in some cases PISSED off at my decision to film scenes where masculine black males (even “thugs,” in some cases) perform “submissive” sexual acts with white males. The vast majority (probably 99.9999%) of gay interracial porn consists of the stereotypical hung black stud fucking the hell out of a sissy white bottom, to the point that any departure from that stereotype strikes some as “unnatural” and distasteful. This is so deeply engrained in our conceptions of gay interracial sex that the amateur producer Joe Schmoe recently coined the term “reverse interracial” to describe scenes where the black male sucks dick or gets fucked by a white guy. I’ve even heard from some black guys who go so far as to say it’s “racist” any time a white man takes the “top” role with a black guy. [To be fair, I’ve also heard from MANY guys, both white AND black (and neither), who WELCOME the change of pace.]

What I *DIDN’T* anticipate, however, was the kind of negative, even HOSTILE, reaction by some to the “straight seduction”/”gay for pay” theme itself (regardless of its racial make-up). I’ve been accused of exploitation, rape, manipulation, cruelty, torture….Hell, reading through some of the comments on my X-Tube clips, you’d think I should be reported to Amnesty International for crimes against humanity!

I’m beginning to think that a lot of this hostility comes from a lack of familiarity with the history and diversity of gay erotica, and a very limited exposure to AMATEUR porn in particular.

A big part of it is generational, I think. Most of the negative feedback comes from young black guys who’ve only been watching gay porn for a couple years at the most. They’ve been raised on a porn diet of predictable, black-only porn scenes where the “tops are tops” and the “bottoms are bottoms.” Videos like mine are as foreign to them as everything else that happened before 1990 😉 . They seem to have no idea that my videos are part of a genre that’s been around for decades!

I’ve been obsessed with “straight boy” porn since I first started watching porn in college. For the longest time I was addicted to the young Adonises of Bel Ami, beautiful straight boys from Eastern Europe who the legendary director George Duroy would recruit from poor villages into lives of “gay for pay” porn. My influences since then are too many to describe here. They range from comically staged fantasies to gritty, documentary-style “reality porn” depicting actual straight boys selling their young bodies for cash.

I suppose it’s fair to question the “morality” of such films (just as I suppose it’s fair to debate the “morality” of porn itself).

I have to confess, however, that what some find morally reprehensible are the very same things that turn me on the most! While I certainly don’t condone rape or violence, there’s a huge gray area between passionate, eager lovemaking and the extreme of non-consensual sex, that has a lot of erotic potential.

Themes like economic coercion, prostitution, the “deflowering” of virgins, reluctance, initiations/hazing, sex in exchange for money or favors, etc. have always held a powerful erotic appeal for me in literature, film, erotic fiction, AND pornography. These themes have a long and vibrant history in both gay AND straight erotica, and I don’t see why their relatively mild manifestations in my own videos should be so shocking or offensive.

Over the next few weeks, I plan on presenting some of my porn inspirations on this blog as a way of better explaining where I’m coming from, and preparing readers for the release of my potentially controversial next video (I’m calling it Corrupting Cortez, if that tells you anything).

And that brings me to a kind of predicament I’ve gotten myself into with my videos, the “Catch 22” mentioned in the title of this post.

Some of my videos, like The Schoolboy and the Thug, will feature only black models in relatively conventional action scenes (but hopefully with a unique amateur vibe). The problem is that a lot of the fans for these types of videos do NOT enjoy interracial scenes, at least not the type that I’m making. In fact, a lot of them are the same folks who find my “gay for pay” films so disturbing and offensive.

Conversely, a lot of you who enjoy my videos for their interracial and/or “gay for pay” themes have complained that a video like Schoolboy is boring and unappealing.

It’s going to take some time before I know how much cross-over there is between these two camps. My fear at the moment, however, is that I’ll risk alienating both groups by offering videos they simply don’t like (or find offensive).

My feeling as I write this is that I should follow the advice given to me by one of the main guys at AMVC when I started making videos: Stick to the stuff that turns ME on, and trust that those turned on by the same things will buy my videos and remain loyal fans, while those who aren’t will eventually move on to producers who better satisfy their erotic tastes.