My Latest Olympic Crush

Usain Bolt

I’m sorry for posting so little from my own videos lately, but things should hopefully pick up soon as I film new scenes and prepare for release the footage I’ve already shot.

In the meantime, I couldn’t resist sharing a few horny reflections about the latest athlete to make my mild obsession with the Beijing Olympics even more enjoyable 😉 .

I’m talking about Usain Bolt, the 21-year-old, gold-medalist sprinter from Jamaica. (I guess my dick has no sense of national loyalty, LOL).

Damn, what I wouldn’t give for one night….hell, even just one hour….with this stunning dark-skinned Adonis!

Usain Bolt
Everything about him makes my dick hard….his beautiful black skin….his wide, expressive eyes….

Usain Bolt Face

 

….those thick, sensual lips….

Usain Bolt

 

….and that flawless, tightly muscled body!

Not to mention the fact that his shorts seem barely able to contain what appears to be one massive piece of meat hanging between his legs! I’m not trying to take anything away from Bolt’s impressive athletic achievements, but I know I can’t be the only one whose gaze goes immediately down to that heavy appendage flopping wildly all over the place every time he runs!

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Another Reason To Watch the Olympics….

I’ve really been getting into the Olympics this weekend.

At first, watching these physically flawless athletes performing one incredible feat after another just makes me feel like an out-of-shape, lazy, worthless excuse for a human being. I see the ambition, determination, and self-discipline of these athletes who devote every waking hour of every day of their lives for years to train their bodies and perfect their athletic skills….and then I think about how much “fast food” I eat, and all my bad couch-potato habits, and how sometimes it’s even hard for me to find the time and motivation to film an amateur porn video for cryin’ out loud, and of course I end up feeling like a big loser.

Once I get past all the self-loathing, however, I’m able to relax and enjoy the spectacle and suspense and drama of the whole thing. I didn’t think I was going to get drawn into it this time around, but so far I’m hooked.

But the thrill of the competition, the human drama, the national pride, and all of that other high-minded crap is only part of the Olympics’ entertainment value for me. I’m not going to lie, half the time I’m drooling over some cute young gymnast’s ass or desperately hoping that NBC has at least one gay cameraman who will give us a close-up shot of Michael Phelps’ soaking-wet Speedos as he jumps out of the pool after a race 😉 .

Michael Phelps

So you can imagine what a pleasant surprise it was to stumble across Cullen Jones, the only black guy on the U.S. men’s Olympic swim team, and as of earlier tonight, only the second African-American swimmer to win a Gold medal.

Cullen Jones

Cullen Jones

I was expecting plenty of eye-candy….watching an international spectacle like the Olympics really reminds me just how many specimens of stunning male beauty there are around the globe. But a black guy? On the swim team?!? So much for the stereotypes, LOL!

As you can tell from the photos below, he’s a real hottie for sure. He has a flawless body, beautiful skin, perfect teeth, and a sexy smile….

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Gossip-Hungry Gay Boys and Jealous Drama Queens, Spoiling Amateur Porn For Everyone!

I’m beginning to see how the stereotype of the cold, heartless porn producer originated. Once again, I’m feeling like it’s almost impossible for a producer to have any kind of compassion or concern for his models, and still survive and succeed in the business. Once again, I’m torn between my concern for my models as people, and my need to make smart choices as a businessman.

Last weekend, I received a panic-stricken email from one of my models, begging me to take down anything that shows his face. Apparently, the wrong gay people found out about my videos and started spreading gossip and malicious rumors throughout the gay online community in my city, eventually reaching friends and family outside that community as well. One person even stooped so low as to publish a profile on one of the more popular black hook-up sites under the screenname “We_GotAIDS,” listing names, photos, and personal info about several of my models.

I’m 99% certain that one of the people behind it is a guy who’s contacted me several times expressing a desire to do some videos for me. This past Saturday night, he grew hostile and threatening when I politely turned him down. You know how sometimes you can tell that somebody’s not quite “right” just by looking at their pics? This guy looked like a hateful, conniving asshole from the start, and it didn’t take him long to prove my assumptions correct. Unfortunately, he seems hell-bent on spreading gossip and lies about me and my models, thus polluting my pool of potential models (at least those who are gay and bisexual) and potentially causing real harm to the lives and reputations of guys I care about.

I really am too naive and trusting sometimes. When I started this amateur porn project, I totally underestimated the number of hateful, vindictive, ugly human beings out there who don’t give a second thought about destroying other people’s lives if it brings them a little attention; the “crabs in the barrel” who can’t stand seeing others succeed.

One of my models is taking the whole thing particularly hard. He knew when he filmed his scenes there was a risk that people would find out, but he was still mostly closeted and emotionally unprepared, I think, to be exposed in such a cruel and humiliating way. I have tried to tell him that he shouldn’t let the harassment get under his skin; that he is better than the hateful people trying to tear him down; that he still has a bright future ahead of him; that I care about him as more than just a cute model; and that he is welcome to come over any time he needs to get away or just wants a sympathetic listener.

Dragon had to suffer through something similar when his videos first came out. I  also remember witnessing the same kind of thing happen several times when I was a regular “Cocodorm” member. It’s no wonder that the black gay porn industry is dominated by feminine bottom-types who couldn’t hide their sexual orientations if they wanted to…..all the masculine boys are driven into the closet by these shameless gossip-queen bitches who have nothing better to do than expose amateur porn stars!

And that’s one of the ironies about all of this….it’s the guys who love to watch porn and complain about the lack of hot masculine porn stars who are the same ones exposing and attacking their peers who choose to make porn as HIV-infected “sluts” and “ho’s,” thus driving more hot boys away from the porn industry and into the closet.

I don’t know if it’s worse in the black community in general (the flip-side of something usually so positive, a more expansive and intimate family and social network?); or maybe my city is just too damn small, even for an amateur producer like me; or maybe the black gay boys in my city are just particularly vicious and judgmental???

Whatever the cause, the fact that this has already happened to almost all of my models is extremely frustrating and depressing. Making videos with the types of guys I’m attracted to is going to grow increasingly difficult if there’s a mafia of gossip-hungry drama-queens constantly waiting for every blog update as their next chance to expose another one of my models. Every time I post screenshot previews or video clips, I will have to worry that the models involved (at least the gay and bisexual boys) will most likely be exposed, mocked, and humiliated. Even the straight boys are at risk for exposure if some evil gay boy happens to recognize them.

I’ve already removed the blog posts featuring a certain model’s action scenes, at least until he goes off to college in a few weeks, even though it will certainly have a negative impact on my video sales. But I can’t exactly do this every time a model gets “outed,” and I don’t want to settle for filming porn that only features out-and-proud gay men.

I’m really at an emotional and professional impasse here….

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Tales From the Corps: The Boot (An X-Tube Classic)

Click above to check out one of my all-time favorite X-Tube clips. It’s a little bit on the rough side, but I think many of you will enjoy it as much as I have.

Because it’s animated, I honestly didn’t think I’d enjoy it at first….but it turned out to be more arousing and memorable than 99% of the live-action porn I’ve seen! It includes so many of my most intense erotic fantasies and fetishes: interracial sex, rough/aggressive sex, coerced sex, straight males having gay sex, military sex, and facials.

Not only do I love the artist’s delightfully wicked imagination (so similar to my own!), but I’m also so impressed with his inclusion of seemingly minor but erotically powerful details such as precum leaking from dicks, saliva dripping from chins, sweat pouring from foreheads, and tears running down cheeks.

If this kind of thing turns you on as well, you should stop by MCBoy21’s X-Tube profile, check out his other videos, and take a minute or two to tell him how much you appreciate his hard work!

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Why Are My Videos So Damn QUIET?!?

I love watching loud, raunchy, aggressive sex.

The kind of sex where the “top” takes control both physically and verbally. Sometimes it’s an attitude of confidence or even cockiness, with the “top” barking orders like, “Yeah, swallow that dick!” or “You gonna give me some of that ass?!?” or “Take that dick!” Other times, it’s more intense and aggressive, verbal taunting like “Get on your knees and suck this motherfuckin’ dick!” or “Yeah, choke on that dick!” or “Damn, you takin’ that dick like a bitch!” etc. etc.

The kind of sex where the “bottom” gasps and winces and groans….not with girlish squeals of ecstasy, but masculine grunts of resistance and endurance, pain mingled with pleasure, and maybe even a bit of humiliation about the fact that his ASS is being enjoyed by another man. Ass is sure as hell not pussy, and when a man gets fucked in his ass, it’s a very different kind of experience from a woman enjoying vaginal intercourse. For me, it’s the fact that there’s something difficult and “unnatural” about a man’s asshole being penetrated that makes it so hot to watch. That’s probably why I’m so turned on by watching inexperienced “tops” take dick….the pained facial expressions, the muscles tightened defensively, the squirming discomfort with occasional flashes of reluctant pleasure….all of that depicts a kind of conquest, the surrendering of one man’s body to another, that is intensely arousing to watch.

Rough, verbal sex almost always makes for hotter porn, in my opinion. Isn’t porn ultimately about the art of exaggeration, taking our fantasies and fetishes and making them almost ridiculously explicit and larger than life? So it’s no wonder that the best porn usually involves a little bit of aggression and “dirty talk.”

That brings me to my biggest disappointment with my own videos so far: the fact that they’re so damn QUIET!

I’ve been recognizing this as a weakness in my videos for awhile now, and a couple of you have brought it up lately, so I figured it was as good a time as any to discuss it on the blog. In all of my videos, I think there are plenty of arousing visuals and memorable action. Even the natural sounds of dick-sucking, ball-slurping, butt-licking, and ass-fucking can be a real turn-on. But I’ll be the first to admit that my videos lack the kind of aggressive edge and verbal exchanges I’d prefer!

Part of this can’t be helped, I’m afraid. At least not until I find some places other than my apartment where I can film. There are coffee-shops and restaurants right next to where I live, which means I have very little privacy because people are almost always around (if you’ve watched any of my videos, you’ve probably already heard the sounds of people laughing, dogs barking, children playing, etc. in the background). Plus, I have a neighbor living in an apartment right next to me, and the walls in my apartment building are frustratingly thin. So sadly, rough and verbal sex isn’t much of an option for me until I find some other places to shoot.

Still, I know things could be at least a LITTLE more energetic than they’ve been so far. It seems like the guys I’ve worked with so far just aren’t the aggressive or verbal types. As a couple of you have already pointed out, part of this is no doubt due to the fact that all of the guys I’ve worked with have never done anything like this before, so they’re understandably going to be a little nervous and inhibited throughout their first video-shoots. Most of the guys I’ve worked with so far also tend to be quiet, laid-back types, and when they have sex it’s just naturally quiet and laid-back like their personalities.

I’m no exception. I can get a little dominant physically sometimes….grabbing a guy’s head while he’s sucking my dick, smacking my hard dick against his face, fairly standard stuff like that….but I’ve never done a very good job at being verbally dominant. I basically have two expressions that I use on a regular basis: “Ahhh, that feels good!”….and “You like that?!?” Even with those rather corny and mild expressions, I usually feel ridiculous when I hear the words come out of my mouth!

Shyne likes to tease me about this, and tells me that I need to come up with some “new material.” Not that he has any room to talk, considering the fact that he’s almost comically quiet during his scenes, even when he’s obviously enjoying himself.

And that brings up another issue. My basic porn philosophy as an amateur producer has been to let the guys be themselves and just film whatever happens with little to no coaching or interference from me. The sex might be mediocre, it might be awful, and maybe, just maybe, it will be sizzling-hot….but whatever happens, it will be REAL.

But lately I’ve begun to realize that a little more “directing” from me might be necessary, especially when working with shy, nervous, and/or sexually inexperienced models. Still, I worry that too much coaching from me might cross the line between authentic amateur porn and phony, exaggerated “acting.”

Like many of you, I’d like to see things get a little more intense and dirty and verbal in future videos. I will strive to direct the action a little more, without spoiling its spontaneity and authenticity. As I evolve as a producer/director, I will also continue to evolve as a performer, hopefully growing more confident and creative and daring in future videos. Plus, I will continue finding new models, and I’m sure some of them will be more naturally wild and outgoing and aggressive in the bedroom than the guys I’ve featured so far.

Trust me, I’m my own worst critic, and things will only get hotter from here….

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Whose Ass Was Tastier?!?

Eating Jay's Ass

I just got the following message from a fan of my videos. It made me laugh, and I thought I’d share it with my blog readers:

i am not one pressed for dick, but really wouldnt turn down a chance to suck off cortez. so have you heard from him recently and how is jay, you know they have to do a video together next right lol and whose dick and ass was tastier cortez or jay?

Of course that is an impossible question to answer, LOL! That’s like asking a little kid to choose between candy and ice-cream 😉 !

Both Jay and Cortez had two of the sweetest asses and most delicious dicks I’ve ever had the privilege of tasting! If I absolutely had to choose, I’d probably pick Jay’s dick over Cortez’s, and Cortez’s ass over Jay’s.

I liked the way Jay’s smaller-sized dick slid smoothly in and out of my mouth; the smooth texture of its caramel skin; as well as its salty-sweet taste.

Jay’s ass, on the other hand, had a clean, almost soapy, taste to it, probably because his video-shoot started in the morning, only an hour or so after he’d showered.

In contrast, I filmed my scene with Cortez well after midnight, and his ass had that sweaty, musky taste and smell that only a young thug’s ass can have. Plus, his asshole was so tiny and unbelievably tight, and it was a huge turn-on to be granted (reluctant) access to that most private, protected part of his body that even his countless “bitches” had never dared to explore!

I agree that a scene with Jay and Cortez together would be a porn dream come true, but I wouldn’t get your hopes up. I think we’ll see 50 Cent elected President before that happens, LOL! Even if by some miracle they both agreed to do it, I doubt I’d have enough cash on hand to make it happen. Still, it’s a hot fantasy….

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Back From Vacation and Horny As Hell!

I’m finally back from a fun and restful summer vacation!

I love spending time with my family, but I’m always horny as hell when I come home! As I’ve mentioned before, my family is extremely religious and sexually repressive, so that’s part of the reason I always feel so restless and hyper-sexual when I get back. Growing up, when my parents brainwashed me into thinking that even masturbation was a sin, I think it was almost inevitable that one day I’d rebel by becoming an amateur pornographer 😉 ! Maybe if they’d raised me in a brothel or nudist colony, I would have turned out to be a conservative preacher like my Dad. Life’s just hilariously ironic and fucked-up that way.

I spent most of the past couple weeks at my grandparents’ lake cottage in a very rural area, where I don’t think there was a single black person within a radius of a hundred miles, LOL! At least there were lots of cute, small-town white boys everywhere, usually strutting around in nothing but shorts or bathing suits, showing off their tight teenage bodies and deeply tanned skin. I love those cocky, straight, working-class white boys almost as much as I do the black boys, so that made the depressing non-existence of the latter at least a little more bearable 😉 !

It was great to come home to the exciting news that my videos earned the top three spots on AMVC’s Top Twenty List for the month of June!

The Schoolboy and the Thug landed in the #1 spot for the third month in a row.

The Schoolboy and the African earned the #2 spot, which was a nice surprise considering that it didn’t go on sale until the last weekend in June.

And Corrupting Cortez came in at #3, still not breaking even on the foolish amount of money I spent on that video but at least it’s a modest success!

To all of you who have purchased my DVD’s, I want to say a warm, enthusiastic THANK YOU! Every one of my movies that you add to your DVD collection or watch in my Online Theater gives me a little additional spending money to invest in more videos starring hot black boys like Shyne, Dragon, Eureka, DJ, Cortez, etc., as well as new boys I’ve yet to film! Your encouragement and support means the world to me!

I also appreciate all the comments left on the blog while I was out of town, and I’ll try my best to reply to most of them in the next few days!

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Porn Pimp or Porn Pushover? (And Other Weekend Ramblings)

I’m learning the hard way that this is a business of highs and lows, ups and downs, and nothing can ever be taken for granted. ESPECIALLY when I’m working with young guys whose moods and ambitions and life circumstances change from day to day. It’s a tough balancing act for a guy as sentimental and emotional as I tend to be.

On the one hand, I don’t want to turn into some sleazy porn-producer stereotype who treats his models like disposable pieces of meat. The kind of guy who’s totally emotionless when things turn sour with a particular model….because he thinks that one cute black boy’s just as good as the next, and there are a dozen new faces to replace any one guy, right?

At the same time, I feel like I’m WAY too emotionally invested in my models right now, to the point that it’s potentially bad for business and most definitely bad for my mental health. I really need to figure out how to strike a balance between the cold-hearted Porn Pimp and the overly-sensitive guy who gets too attached to his models.

Thank goodness Dragon hasn’t let me down yet! He still calls me about once a week to ask about my latest video-shoots and hear what people have been saying on the blog lately. He was ECSTATIC when I told him that The Schoolboy and the Thug was the #1 movie on AMVC for a second month in a row!

Speaking of Dragon….

Last night I went out to dinner with one of my closest friends. She’s a black lesbian who is very open-minded about sex, and the first friend that I told about my secret “hobby.” She’s been incredibly supportive from the time I first told her (“How could I NOT support you when you’re making your dream come true???” she explained). Whenever we hang out, she asks how the business is going, what videos I’m working on, etc., and it’s always nice to be able to talk about things with a close friend in person, as opposed to posting things on the blog, or talking with my models, or corresponding with cyber-friends through email.

Anyway, after dinner last night she came back to my place and asked me to show her one of my videos. I was really reluctant and embarrassed at first, but eventually I decided “what the hell.” I’ve never really watched porn with my platonic friends before, let alone watched gay male porn with a LESBIAN when the porn in question was filmed by me! Needless to say, it was a pretty bizarre and comical experience.

I showed her The Schoolboy and the Thug, and she loved it! She was really amused by Shyne’s attitude throughout much of the scene, the way he’d switch from apparent indifference to arousal in a matter of seconds. She was also impressed with Dragon’s performance (“Damn, he’s really WORKIN’ it!” she exclaimed when Dragon was riding Shyne’s dick), and she told me to tell Dragon that he should take FULL credit for the video’s success! I’m sure Dragon will be THRILLED to hear that, since a definite rivalry has developed between he and Shyne since they filmed that first scene.

Tomorrow afternoon I have plans to meet with this cute, 19-year-old white boy that I’m hoping to feature in some interracial scenes if all goes well. I still plan on appearing in some of my interracial videos, but it’s always so stressful juggling sex AND filming at the same time, especially when trying to fuck the guys on camera. I’ve had a lot of difficulty getting the right angles and staying hard throughout numerous interruptions. But I don’t have the kind of budget that can afford to hire a videographer (plus, I’m a bit of a control-freak when it comes to the actual filming). So I’m hoping if things work out with this new kid, I can film some hot interracial FUCKING in the near future, without the limitations that come with tripod-style homemade porn. We’ll see how things go tomorrow….

I’m starving, and that left-over pizza in the fridge is sounding pretty damn good, so that’s enough rambling for now….

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Two Rednecks and A Black Guy Are Together In A Room….

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….Sounds like the beginning of an offensive joke, I know, but hear me out….

Joe Schmoe is one of my favorite fellow producers over at AMVC.

A lot of guys assume that because I started a company called Black Boy Addictionz, that means I’m ONLY attracted to black males, but that’s not the case at all. In fact, I’ve always had a thing for cute young rednecks, country-boys and “trailer park” types like the guys in Joe Schmoe’s videos. It’s really not all that different from my attraction to “thugs”….sometimes crossing class lines can be just as exciting as breaking down racial divisions.

Joe’s videos also have this gritty amateur vibe that is unlike ANYTHING I’ve ever seen in amateur porn. I like to think that I do a pretty good job of conveying a sense of spontaneity and authenticity in my own videos, but I swear Joe takes the amateur genre to a level that makes other amateur videos like mine look like glamorous Hollywood productions! (That is a compliment to his videos, not an insult!).

Sure, my videos are homemade, but I still recruit my models, schedule video-shoots, and set up the kind of camera-shots that I think will look the hottest. In most of Joe’s videos, however, it really looks his guys just stopped by his house unannounced after a long day’s work at the factory, horny and drunk and ready to fuck around as a way to earn some extra cash and/or explore their repressed same-sex urges before heading home to their wives and girlfriends.

I’m also a big fan of Joe Schmoe because I consider him to be a kind of fellow “pioneer” in the genre he’s referred to in the past as “reverse interracial.” He isn’t scared to show black guys sucking and getting fucked by young redneck dick, or taking some country-boy cum on their faces. Even when the action is more “predictable interracial” than “reverse interracial”, the whole dynamic of the black-guy-with-redneck taboo brings a freshness and erotic intensity that I normally don’t find in gay interracial porn.

Now I normally wouldn’t post a recommendation for a film I haven’t seen yet, but Joe’s latest release looks so damn hot and I have a feeling that a lot of the blog readers who enjoy my interracial scenes might want to check it out.

It’s called Dirty Old Men Start Out As Dirty Young Men (gotta love the creativity of his titles!), and it just went on sale today. Here’s part of the official description and a couple screenshot previews:

 

An open-minded str8(?) skaterboy, a barely legal redneck teenboy, a black ex-con who craves white cock on the DL, all ”meat” up for some amateur southern style cock suckin, cig smokin’, jerkin and more at Joe’s Place. New comer Jay is a quiet, but eager as he takes his first steps to becoming a dirty young man. As usual, its as amateur as it gets…and then some. -Joe

 

Nimrod brought his 18 yr old skatebuddy Jay over to make a vid. They’ve never seen each others dicks before or messed around. Jay just turned 18 less than a month ago and says that he’s bi…you can tell he’s very curious. Black ex-con Dee LOVES young white cock. Even though he is engaged, he couldn’t resist the chance to get a hold of some teen redneck dick. He reminds me of Dave Chapelle.

The teens get a look of Dee’s monster cock and can’t resist tasting it for themselves. They each take turns sucking some black cock…and of course Dee almost sucks the nuts right off both them boys. Nimrod gives Dee a redneck facial, Dee nuts on the floor, and Jay strokes one out by himself after Nimrod and Dee finish.


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Of course my ULTIMATE Joe Schmoe porn fantasy would be to see my favorite young “wannabe thug” J-Bone in the middle of an interracial threesome, but I guess Dee will have to do for now 😉 !

It’s rare that I buy porn on DVD any more, but I just ordered a copy so I won’t have to wait a month or more before it shows up online.

You can also check out most of Joe’s other flicks right here in my Online Theater.

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Mama Said There’d Be Days Like This (Well, Not EXACTLY!)

I always roll my eyes in disgust when I hear celebrities on TV complaining about the paparazzi, or their exhausting schedules as they shoot scenes for the next Hollywood blockbuster. They must be so miserable, I think sarcastically, going home to their multi-million-dollar mansions and servants and private yachts.

So I always feel a little guilty when I find myself complaining about my “job” as an amateur porn producer 😉 . I have to remind myself that I’m actually living out my life-long fantasy. I’m lucky enough to have hot young black boys coming over to my apartment on a regular basis, stripping naked and then fucking each other just a few feet away from me. It’s the same voyeuristic thrill of watching porn, only infinitely hotter because I’m able to feel the heat of their bodies, and enjoy the smell of their dicks and balls and asses and sweat. When I’m REALLY lucky, I even get to enjoy their beautiful young bodies myself. I’m actually LIVING the fantasy of thousands of gay men, and I never want to take that for granted.

Still, there are days like yesterday when I’m reminded that producing amateur porn isn’t all fun and games. I spent most of yesterday doing the two things I enjoy LEAST about this business:

The first involves anything related to website programming and other technical issues. I’m pretty confident when it comes to the relatively simple stuff like emailing, blogging, video editing, posting images and video clips, etc. But I’m embarrassingly clueless when it comes to more technical things like designing a website. Simple tasks that would probably take the average computer-savvy 13-year-old about ten minutes to complete end up taking me several excruciatingly stressful hours 😉 !

For example, I spent a huge portion of my day yesterday working on creating a warning page for my blog….designing the page, setting up a hosting service, switching my blog’s URL to a sub-domain, etc. If it weren’t for the help of Jason over at Spunkworthy Video, I’d probably STILL be stressing out about it. He talked me through it, and provided a lot of great tips and pointers in the process. Plus, it was fun talking to another AMVC producer on the phone for the first time, swapping stories and gossip and advice about the business. Even though a few of my close friends know about my porn business, I still don’t have anyone other than my models with whom I feel comfortable talking so candidly about things.

I had to juggle the stress of creating the warning page with my second-least favorite part of my job: planning and scheduling video-shoots! I spent a ridiculous amount of time yesterday, calling and emailing potential models in an effort to find a hot partner for a second video-shoot with Eureka tomorrow afternoon.

First, there’s the challenge of pairing up guys who will be attracted to one another as well as sexually compatible. Especially when I get the feeling from talking to Eureka on the phone that he’s horny and eager to explore his “bisexual” side through porn (there’s a lot more to that story that I’ll be sure to share later).

Second, there’s the stress of actually trying to get in touch with potential models. Because my time and budget are limited, I can’t film as frequently as I’d like, which means that a lot of the guys who were open to working with me a couple months ago have since graduated college and moved away, or their phones have been disconnected, or they’re now in jail, or they’ve gotten cold feet, etc. The flaky, game-playing guys are the worst….the ones who send me emails saying how eager they are to work with me but then never take or return my calls, or stop calling me back as the time for a scheduled video-shoot grows near.

When I FINALLY get in touch with a guy, there’s still the whole nightmare of going back and forth with emails or phone-calls, trying to juggle the complicated schedules of unpredictable and often-times immature young guys. It’s now late Friday afternoon, and I STILL don’t have a partner for Eureka!

Well, at the end of a long day, I finally got my warning page to work, and I think it looks pretty damn good considering the fact that it’s my first web-page ever!

I apologize for the delay in blogging and releasing new videos caused by my out-of-town travels and development of the new blog, but now that I have the new blog up and running, I’m hoping to get back into a more consistent routine of recruiting, filming, editing, and blogging! Thanks for your patience!

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